My legs look horrible.. It's really embarrassing. Basically, I got mosquito bites and then scratched them all really hard so they bled. For the past few months, they keep trying to heal and form scabs, but I keep interfering with them and picking at the scabs until they bleed. I spent most of my summer wearing pants because it just started to look gross and ridiculous.
Anyone have an issue with picking at scabs? Specifically, scabs you got naturally and not from self-injuring. It is a compulsive thing (I don't like the dried up scab for some reason), but it also does hurt sometimes. I just feel so much release when I tear the scab off and I am fascinated by watching the blood come out.
Sounds weird writing it, but I'm sure you guys know what I mean. It doesn't even happen because I feel traumatized and want to feel pain... It has this really compulsive element to it that I don't exactly understand.(I might put this post in the compulsive forum) And just a small back history, I have had a looong history of self-injury starting when I was 16 . It stopped for the most part around age 21, but then I started abusing alcohol a lot so that kinda replaced it.
Thanks everyone & this is my first post, so heyyy!!!