Hi
First off I'm not going to defend your mum because what she did isn't right. You don't deserve that. I've been there and it's so hurtful.
[Darkness] wrote: I hadn't for about three days, but it just sort of happened.
I think the message you should take from this is that you didn't hurt yourself for three days. That's three full days. Well done. It takes a lot of self control to refrain from SI at times.
Also from what you said it looks like your mother was the trigger/cause, not you.
I would recommend going to the GP and talking it through. Hell bring your mum on your second visit. If you don't have the confidence or words to explain depression to your mother, the Doc may be able to help explain to her. I know there are some people that just refuse to understand (my dad for instance) and make no effort to help you, and put you down and cause pain. These people don't deserve you and from my experience setting such people aside and keeping my distance helps. I still can't talk to my dad 5 years on.
But really, go to your Doc. If you open up to him/her they can refer you to specialists and prescribe meds which can help. It is most important for you to seek the help you need.
I hope things are better today and i hope the new year brings good things.
One does not simply recover in a day.
Diagnosed MDD and BPD, and I suspect AvPD.
I feel like I can't go on, but here I am still crawling onward.
Oh look, more $#1T...I was wondering What to do with the rest of my day.