2 months of no SH today. No e-cigs, no cigs, no weed, no cheating, no running away, no long talks with my mom, no more than 2 drinks, no venting with/through pain, and I'm doing good. Not every day is easy, but I am getting through it. Learning to be kinder to me so that I can be kinder to the ones that I care about. Accepting my flaws, saying NO when I have had enough, choosing how I spend my time more carefully, and generally trying to be more realistic about what is reasonable to expect from myself, and others.
Thank you guys all for helping me get through the really dark parts. I hope that I can help others through it also. There is light at the end of the tunnel.