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Neglect and abuse and inability to feel joy as an adult

Postby Machiavello » Tue Jan 17, 2017 8:21 pm

I was neglect and abused since a toddler, I spent many hours alone and was isolated from other people until I became 18 and could ran away from there.

My objetive was to survive, I never really enjoyed anything, I wasn't said I was a good child, or given presents, or anything... I just spent all the time trying to be invisible and playing videogames hidden in a room nobody used.

Now, as an adult, with freedoom, I realized I don't have motivation to do things and I don't enjoy them, I just don't know what joy is. Things and activities look empty (not myself)...

Any thought? Suggestion? Book to read that could help?

I am trying Concerta, and seemed to help a bit with it, I felt... normal I guess... because I feel joy for the , maybe for the first time in my life....

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Re: Neglect and abuse and unability to feel joy as an adult

Postby helloagain » Wed Jan 18, 2017 1:17 am

Are you still living a lonely life? I think socialising will help more than drugs and books.
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Re: Neglect and abuse and unability to feel joy as an adult

Postby Machiavello » Wed Jan 18, 2017 8:04 am

helloagain wrote:Are you still living a lonely life? I think socialising will help more than drugs and books.


I signed up to an sport (twice a week) and cultural (once a week) activity and I go to a day hospital. It's something. I can't socialize without drugs because I can't stop hearing to voices and entities :roll:

I need to learn first to socialize, then I can stop the drugs and see what happens.
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Re: Neglect and abuse and inability to feel joy as an adult

Postby Terry E. » Wed Jan 18, 2017 10:06 am

What you experience is quite common for abused and neglected children. This was first noticed as far back as the 1820's. It is one of the things that sets us apart. We tend not to live in the moment. It limits opportunities to experience joy.

It is also very hard to solcialise without "trust". Without correct attachment to parents, trust, as it is understood in normal society is hard to find.

I found much more by googling child abuse research papers than any book I could find.

You are actually doing all the things you should. I recommend, believe the process, and give it time.

Take care.
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Re: Neglect and abuse and inability to feel joy as an adult

Postby Machiavello » Wed Jan 18, 2017 3:19 pm

Terry E. wrote:What you experience is quite common for abused and neglected children. This was first noticed as far back as the 1820's. It is one of the things that sets us apart. We tend not to live in the moment. It limits opportunities to experience joy.

It is also very hard to solcialise without "trust". Without correct attachment to parents, trust, as it is understood in normal society is hard to find.

I found much more by goggling child abuse research papers than any book I could find.

You are actually doing all the things you should. I recommend, believe the process, and give it time.

Take care.


Thank you, I think I need to learn more about attachment.
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Re: Neglect and abuse and inability to feel joy as an adult

Postby Terry E. » Thu Jan 19, 2017 12:40 am

Yeah, have a look at it. Even children brought up in what appears happy families can have attachment issues if one parent is distant, so when it is your situation the impact will be there.

Read up on it, take time to reflect, each one of these pieces moves you forward.

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Re: Neglect and abuse and inability to feel joy as an adult

Postby quietgirl2538 » Thu Jan 19, 2017 5:56 pm

There's is a lot of information about attachment out there. I used to have a book on it but never got around to reading it and then later I lost the book. But those few pages I skimmed through, I did see were eye-openers. Children need attachment. Keep writing here, if you want, and we will try to be here for you the best we can be.
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