Both of my parents are deceitful manipulative liars which will try to do anything to cause harm to anyone trying exposing them. Right now, both parties, my mom and my dad are having wars over their properties like the rats they are.
I'm 18 now and my parents abused me throughout my life. I feel rather tired now, and I'm scared working and moving out (from my mother). I feel like I have no support, they make me feel like I depend on them but if I try to depend on them they just find a way to screw me over; from what I understood their motivation of doing so is dominance, including other materialistic issues that I won't post here. I actually improved a lot the last few years, my parents are now in confusion as to why I haven't committed suicide yet or that I'm not in a mental asylum (overheard).
To keep this short, how can I calm down, gain confidence to do everything? I have no money for therapists.
Also, a bit of extra: If I were to list the things they have done here, a psychologist or anyone would ask, "are you sure that this is true?" but after investigating and doing some research, I have revealed all the truth. Some things were exaggerated, true, but the truth on all the different questions and mysteries don't make it better, especially on how my dad got rich. This went as far as going to the Police where they listened to me and then dropped everything in a day which I and some other people found suspicious (fyi, I'm not in a Western country). Social workers didn't care nor did they check the house. They ignored me when I was 17 and you can't believe how fast everything was dropped when I was smaller if I complained. Also don't forget the beatings I got for it and also being called a, "traitor."