i threw up blood.

let me give you background info first:
the first time i purged was february. i did it about 2-3 times a week until april, when a long-distance friend told me she'd never talk to me again if i didnt stop. so i did. i was fine from april until last thursday.

ive thrown up four different days since then, and i just threw up my second time today and a little blood came out. i think i've thrown up blood before but idk im kind of worried right now.

i dont want to tell anyone so close to thanksgiving because im afraid it will ruin my holiday. and i dont want to tell anyone during december because im afraid that will ruin the christmas holidays for me. do you think i could wait until after new years?

Kelly,
You've broken the routine that helped you to control your bulimia. That means you must create a new one. Try keeping a log of what you're eating. Remember, a minor inconvenience now is better than a major problem later. Fill out a daily checklist of meals to eat with healthy proportions. Don't eat an excessive amount. If you know you haven't binged, then you will be less likely to purge. At the same time, don't starve yourself either. Also, remember that you can say "no" when you're offered calorie bombs. If you fear that you'll purge after your holiday feasts, then you'll need to maintain your composure and let it be known when you've had enough. I've felt coerced into eating excessively before too, but your number one priority must be to get your bulimia under control even if it causes a bit of social awkwardness.

that actually helps a lot. thank you.