This turned into bulimia.
I have struggled to start eating like a 'normal' person,
three times a day, but I have never been able to do it.
For the past 14 (!!) years or so, I've eaten one meal a day.
Usually around 11 or so. I sit down and that is the 1 moment in
the day when I allow myself to satisfy my hunger.
It's the only way I can control food.
If I had to eat 3 meals a day, it would be like saying to an
alcoholic : you can have one sip of an alcoholic drink three
times a day, without ever keeping on drinking till you fall down.
I won't lie and say that the way I eat doesn't interfere with my
every day life. I don't work. If I did, where would I eat?
I don't want people seeing how much I eat. It takes me a fair
while to get through my food as well.
How would I cope with the hunger pangs which make
me unable to concentrate?
I eat a fair bit, I need to in order to keep me going for the rest of
the day.
Also,due to the damage I have done to my intestines, I can only
digest baby food such as rusks and porridge
I eat vegetables but there's only a few that don't give me
stomach ache.
I'm not overweight atm ( 57 kgs and 1.69 or 9 stone and 5'7) and actually fairly satisfied with
my weight for the first time in my life. There is always room for
improvement of course, but I have accepted my body.
I have come to terms with how I eat.
But I have to see a psychologist soon, not just for my eating
disorder (or is it?) but also for bpd.
I recently looked up 'eating one meal a day' on the Internet and
found there are more people who eat like this, there is even
a 'diet' which is called the Warrior Diet which actually claims
eating just once a day is beneficial because your bowels don't have
to work to digest small meals all day long.
Sorry for this long intro.........but I guess after all this time I have
to decide whether it's finally time to face my eating problems....
or should I just not mention them to my psych?
Am I deluding myself reading about other people who eat once a
day, thinking it makes it ok for me to do so?
I hope someone will have got this far and will comment



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