I have BPD. I am 24 and have been in the psych unit about 25 times. So it is pretty severe. Well all of these years I have been having severe rage fits. Over the smallest things. My doctor says I dissociate during them. I basically do anything and everything to cause havoc. I throw things, punch walls, break glass objects, break bones in my body, cut myself until I need stitches. I have even rammed the car into the house before. I break expensive things like iPods, etc. And once I start, I don't feel like I can stop until it is all out of me. The other day is a good example of how I can be. My girlfriend wanted to go to bed early and I completely flipped. I broke a plate in the bathroom, threw myself down a flight of stairs, banged my head really hard against the wall a few times, then went into the bathroom, took one of the shards of glass, and cut up my hand. I got ten stitches. The problem is that lately EVERYTHING has been making me angry. I am also under a lot of stress too. I have been on every medication under the sun and nothing helps it. I have been to therapy, that didn't help. Sometimes I just feel like I am living in a constant hell. I just don't know what to do. I think of killing myself everyday. And things aren't probably as bad as I think they are.
OCD, Agoraphobia, Asperger's, PMDD, Anorexia, Personality disorder, dyscalculia, addiction.