I shut off my emotions about certain things. If I feel I'm about to be left, I go nuts. If I feel I've already been nuts, I go numb and force myself not to care. That was my only survival method while I lived with my parents. It's also what drove me to cutting.
"Scar tissue has no character. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what's beneath. That's why we grow it; we have something to hide."
Dx: Bipolar, type II
Rx: Lamictal, 100 mg; Lithium, 1350 mg