I personally do not think any post is pointless. Even if it is to say Hello. Is anyone there. What you wrote is what was on your mind and you needed to express it. No shame in that.
Do you have any hobbies.... What brings you enjoyment.... Those things would be yours.
I swing. And I listen to music on my IPod while I am doing it. It is an escape for me. I have done it since a child.
I know it sounds foolish and stupid as an adult but for me it was always soothing. So I just never stopped.