Thank you for your reply's - I really appreciate it.
Luckily for me I live in the UK and don't need to pay for my healthcare - I guess this is why I'm also a little apprehensive "You get what you pay for".
Are there any questions I should ask them? Like their proffesional accrediation, the process, what their prefered mental area? etc. I feel if they're getting to know me, I should see f they're right for me.
I agree with being completely honest with them, however I don't want to be mis-construed as an annoyance because they can't deal with me. I just can see myself sitting there in silence - Perhaps I should take a pen and paper in as I tend to write what I intend to say easily as opposed to verbally where I have foot in mouth syndrome.
I really do want to improve and I have done... I think - I rarely do anything risky - drink/drugs/spending etc. The only issues I feel I'm having at the moment is mood instability. I keep being a nightmare - screaming, going into fits of rage where my boyfriend has to restrain me or I'll lay in bed thinking no one loves me wishing I was dead, in tears writing my suicide note. UGGGGGGGGGGH!
I feel guilty now - I'll discuss this tomorrow with the therapist, hopefully she's a switched on cookie otherwise she'll bore me to death.
One again thank you