I feel the need to pat myself on the back, and get a pat or two from others.
Today was an especially crazy day for me. A few weeks ago (who am I kidding ... YESTERDAY) I would have been in the fetal position reeling from whatever mess I made of my world based on my irrational reactions to everything.
Today I have been handling stuff amazingly well.
1) My boys woke me up fighting. The little one jumped on the big one's bed, and there was a war. I brought them downstairs, acted as if there wasn't even a fight and asked what they wanted for breakfast.
2) My husband was stranded most of the day in Detroit. Never once did I even THINK he was with another woman or trying not to come home. When he told me he was f-ing pissed and had to get off the phone, I actually felt empathy. I realized he was having a horrible day, so I gave him space. It was amazing because when he finally did call me back, he was SO NICE.
3) My computer crashed - I lost a whole bunch of research for this class I'm in (the last before I receive my MA). I didn't take a hammer to the laptop. I just set it in recovery mode, got a little (a lot) angry, took the downtime it gave me to hang with my little guy, and wrote the rest of my paper on the family computer.
I can't believe it. I feel like someone took over my body and made me react like a normal person.
I guess either DBT or TRE or some other acronym is kicking in.
Maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves. - Chuck Palahniuk