I was just thinking about this today.
I feel like I don't really have a personality... I soak up the personality of other people. Especially men that I like. I realized it because I've been interested in multiple men lately, and some of them work in the same vicinity... and I will change myself based on whichever one I'm around, or was last around.
I change my opinions, my tastes, my behavior, mannerisms, my aspirations... even the way I think is different. I was seeing a guy who is catholic and said to me that I should convert. I thought, if I were with him I probably would... despite my complete lack of religious beliefs!
To some extent I change to be what they want, but it's more... I feel like I become an extension of them. It's strange even to me... I want to be just like them.
And then I lose them, and I don't know who I am.
"I have seen too much, felt too much, loved too much in my life; I come to seek, still living, the calm of Lethe. Lovely place, be for me those banks of oblivion: to forget is my only happiness."