I do, but it's mostly still in anger, and the relationship ended years ago.
I allowed myself to stay in an abusive relationship for 3 years with him, so I'm angry at myself for allowing the damage that it caused, as well. I wish I had never met him.
This was long before I ever knew anything was wrong with me, and for some reason, I was
attracted to someone who enjoyed hitting all of my triggers as much as he could.
He had his own problems with intimacy, pushing-pulling, keeping walls up, etc. but isn't the type who would ever EVER accept that he might possibly be causing problems in any situation - least of all in a relationship - why, heavens no! If I had to guess, having learned what I know now, I'd say he was probably a Narcissist/Histrionic. I'll never know, though, and probably he won't, either.
So yes, he pops up in my dreams once in awhile and I wake up cranky and upset.
I still am in contact with friends I met through that relationship, so occasionally I hear things about him. It's very difficult to stay friends with the neutral parties because of it. I was very hurt by this person, and I don't know when I'll be completely over that. I hate that.
"...My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies. Fairytales of yesterday will grow but never die. I can fly, my friends!"