Does anyone's life almost revolve around the love and obsession of one person ? I don't mean following their footsteps and hiding behind newspapers on park benches but loving them, empty and depressed without them, just revolving your life and thoughts around them and nothing can take it away. It's hard to move on, to grow and meet other people I used to be more that way just find someone else to take their place etc get to love them etc
There is one person i love with all my heart and can never stop thinking of & used to live for the moments i was with them and check their facebook all the time etc. I am lost and empty without them and find it hard to relate to friends the same way. One on one is great but now hating large social situations and being out too long. The thoughts and memories enter my mind along with the fears and painful feelings in the chest.
There is another person i have liked a lot before and sort of the same and try and love him as much to not feel so "in love" and down about the one person. But not on talking terms at the moment with him again either so it's hard and sad on my birthday lol