by ladyjello » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:59 am
I function well for months - well depending on how the "depression" is.
Then get stressed and go to pieces, anxiety, confusion, panic. All my little self confidence goes and I can't make decisions or trust my perceptions. Also lesslikely to trust others. I will go between wanting/needing to speak to people for support and fearing or avoiding people because/in case they hurt me with some remark which I will then worry and obsess about the meaning of and the motivation behind - and feel even worse.
Then I might start to hate them and worry about being such a horrible person and that I will end up completely isolated and alone which makes my catastrophising worse and I feel more panicky (had glimpses of paranoia a few times).
Diazepam, sleep, understanding and kindness and time away from "triggering people" seem to help.
Does this sound a bit like bpd - or what you mean by "not functioning"?
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ladyjello on Tue Sep 13, 2011 7:26 am, edited 1 time in total.
Some Emotional and Mood Instability.