BlackLily wrote:Oh, my. It sounds much like me...
I hate crowds, youth camps with hundreds of people around, I need to feel safe to go out with somebody. Oh, my. Yet in the same time, when I know people for a period of time, I feel safe there and keep stable relationships. And I care for the people. Even so much it comes to a point of making me tired and emotionally exhausted.. I like listening to people, yet I also can't stop it in the point where I feel I can't take more.
Does anybody relate?
(btw, I'm so happy 2 find you all... )
Um, ever see this scene?http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKsVVmOGV9I
That's how I feel when I'm in a crowd, no joke. I was at a Tool concert last month and I was using everything I had to negotiate around the thousands of bubbles that came flying around me (I'm a bubble person). I feel it in my heart and it's difficult to breathe at times. It's an overwhelming feeling. I have a specific anxiety about crowds, always have. Now, I have ways to settle down (once I am seated at the venue, I can calm, relatively), but once I am up and moving again, the asteroid-field chase begins, again, always.
I am on meds now and they are working so I will see how this changes in the future.