Hey guys,
I'm applying for temporary social assistance while I look for a new job. I have a psych discharge form that lists the diagnoses as: EU, BPD, suicidal (crossed out), EtOH intox - death of friend.
Any idea what EU might stand for? I basically have to explain to the welfare office why I lost my last job and haven't been able to find employment since. I started working a week after getting out of psych, but that wasn't enough time. In psych I'm all smiles because I know that's how you get out of psych. I ended up showing up to work drunk/hungover, did a bad job, took tons of time off, got mad at people easily, couldn't concentrate, took long breaks, cried at my desk every day, etc. I was also on 20mg Zyprexa which was probably making things worse for me. I didn't get fired; my boss sent me home on bereavement leave. He sent me health insurance forms after I left, offered to pay for my rehab and I'm still on the payroll, but my position was filled.
He isn't answering the email I sent him asking for some kind of reference. I said I went to rehab, provided a description of my plans going forward, noted that I received an academic award in science, and that I wanted to upgrade my education. I can't begin to do any of my plans without a job. I hope he's away on a business trip or something and not just being a corporate-minded, inhuman CEO dick.
I wasn't drinking excessively in uni. I started drinking because I lost the most important person in my life, which was basically all I talked about in rehab. I spent my entire time there either crying or cracking jokes. They didn't even think I needed to be there, they just said to probably look into grief counseling and come back if that didn't work. My best friend got an academic award in science too, but he died 3 days after convocation. Such a waste. I loved him so much. It's probably 10x worse dealing with loss if you have BPD.
Thanks,
V