Thank you so much lilyfairy, I will check out that site right now.
Can I get the name of the workbook that you are working through as well and I will try to grab a copy of it?
Yeah, well, I have read that often one or two 'symptoms' of BPD are so severe, like depression for instance, that psychiatrists tend to focus on that at first before being able to start working on the more general problem itself, that being BPD, which is understandable. I found this to be true in my case as well where my depression and another problem were so severe, they had little choice other than to focus on getting them under control. Now I finally feel that I am at the point where I can start to focus on the actual problem rather than just the alleviation of symptoms.
Then given the fact that many therapists try to put as much distance as they can between themselves and people with BPD, from what I have read. We tend to be major headaches from time to time, quite often sometimes lol. Not only that, but many consider BPDs to be the most difficult to treat, often not cooperating with treatment, medications, etc., etc.
Thank you again for the link, and it is encouraging to know that someone else is in a similar position as me having to make the best of it with self treatment for the time being. Maybe we can work together sometime through PM's or whatever, working through chapters of books or whatever, discussing them and whatnot. Let me know. Fell free to PM anytime.
-Bilvad