by youneverreallyknow » Fri Oct 17, 2014 9:41 am
I've considered it a lot but never actually done it. I think it was mostly just escapism that helped me to cope, but when I was really struggling I would plan it all out, think about the best timing, what I'd need to organise. Or some days I'd be thinking that I couldn't take one more second of the life I was trapped in, was freaking out and that I should just up and drive away without any thought about how I would actually live.
I don't know that it would have been a forever thing. More one of those people who is expected to be at work one day, disappears and then is found on the other side of the country a few days later.
What stopped me was probably just guilt and responsibility to others. The time when I was seriously considering this, I was stuck in a miserable marriage, struggling with our child, work, study etc. Abandoning a child (even if just for a week) wasn't something I could bring myself to do. If not for that, it would have been much more likely. Now things have changed a bit. Marriage is over, don't feel quite as trapped. The desire to run away isn't there right now.