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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby WendyTorrance » Wed Oct 22, 2014 7:46 am

Narcissistic.
I rather keep the facade(mine, it's mine!) than let go and reveal the whole truth. To someone who's saying the content doesn't even matter - only me talking about it matters.
I have been there, in his place. And it's a terrible feeling, I'm making him doubt himself.

Yes the feeling of control is appealing, but really he should take control and walk away.
..Actually sense of control is just a mirage, and really I'm only looking for justification for my behavior.
And when I step back to at least give him some space, make his moves. He comes and hugs me (figuratively speaking). Darling, be a man.

Well wasn't this personal.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby blank identity » Thu Oct 23, 2014 12:25 pm

For the millionth time, I am NOT your SON. Get it through your f*cking head! You've only known for two years. God, you only DROVE ME to the hospital where I had my surgery. There is nothing more invalidating than to have my own mother, who proclaims to support me as a woman, to say in front of me and her friends, "my son" this, "my son" that.

GOD. Pisses me off to no end. That is all she has ever done is invalidate me. Invalidate everything about me. Any expression of MYSELF.

I've been taking hormones for more than two years, have had a surgery. For god sakes, my own government recognizes me as a woman yet she refuses to.

I hate her so damn much. Get passed your own f*cking shame and stop shaming me for being ME for once in my damn life.

Better yet. Just get the f*ck out of my life.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby hypnotizedeyes » Thu Oct 23, 2014 9:21 pm

Empty.

I want to scream but I have no words... just images that replay in my head, filling me with nothing but dread.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby ElKahn » Fri Oct 24, 2014 12:21 am

I AM PISSED OFF
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Toucan » Fri Oct 24, 2014 1:12 am

I keep flipping back and forth between perfectly content and crying. One of my best friends might leave me so whenever I think about that I get upset.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby star dust » Fri Oct 24, 2014 4:44 pm

Numb. Empty. I don't know. Feel like I want to just change my life and make something happen. But I have absolutely no motivation to do anything right now. None. Feel completely lacking in energy or emotion or pretty much anything at all. I feel like even if someone said to me, you can have anything you want right now, you can have any job you want, live anywhere you want, have any kind of life you want, or just do absolutely anything you want to right this second I wouldn't even know what to choose, or have any desire to choose anything. How messed up is that. I hate this. I just feel as though I am nothing. And it's really horrible.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby Callalily » Sat Oct 25, 2014 1:04 am

Quiet and thoughtful and too shy to be around people. I'm going for a walk in the woods.
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby blank identity » Sun Oct 26, 2014 7:37 am

I think I over did it a little on the benzos. :? :| Nice as it is to feel mellow and relief from anxiety though. :roll:

Wish I had some pot though. :(
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby madjoe » Sun Oct 26, 2014 12:54 pm

to much energy (can't run with my foot still busted)
horney (i feel like some spanish)

Royal Blood - Figure It Out
on repeat
this song R O C K S
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Re: How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Postby blackcat14 » Sun Oct 26, 2014 6:42 pm

empty. drained. lonely to the very core. spaced out, far far away from everybody on earth.
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