I'm really ######6 scared right now. I smoked some really strong bud last night and had a psychotic episode and the voices and paranoia have been horrible ever since. I feel like I'm gonna get killed or at least never find a job again. I'm actually feeling a bit manicky. I'm up at 5am after being up at midnight or later I don't really know I was stoned XD I kinda want some cookie dough but the stores are closed and we have none of the ingredients. We never have any damn food in the house it makes me so angry! Anger is so weird. I just want some damn cookie dough. Actually we should go to the beach today. It's fall so it's really cold but maybe hiking? That seems dangerous in a psychotic state what if I jump off a cliff. Maybe I can fly. Oops. I hope my parents don't mind that my boyfriend slept over XD I feel like a bum for still living with my parents. I'm gonna move out soon! As soon as I find a job I'm busting out. I'm gonna go apply for a ton of jobs. My stomach hurts and I'm not pregnant so maybe I'm PMSing or maybe I have cancer and I'm dying. Who knows?!? Ahahahahahahaha!
I shall spare you from my endless ranting now XD
But how did I get my retainers in? Feels like I've been wearing them for years!