newbie here, hello!

Hey there! I am new to the board and have been dx-ed with autism and anxiety, but because a lot lf my anxiety has been appearance based I've been wondering about it.

I am beginning to realise that most of my fears of lines and dents is coming from my anxiety disorder and may be a appearance related anxiety disorder itself. I keep worrying about lines and dents, being stressed, crying and then having lines as a result of the crying and the pattern doesn't end. I feel like I've brought everything up upon me and this is what I deserve for being stressed

One minute I'll see a normal looking 24 year old woman and the next I'll see a tired looking woman 20 years older. I have built up muscle around my left eye from constantly twitching my muscle and it has created a little angry dent and while it wouldn't usually be too much of a problem, the muscle has become tense and painful and I end up raising an eyebrow further than the other. I know it seems superficial and demeaning to worry about things like this - I never did before - but I can't help bit notice how much I've changed over even 6 months.

I know it's not as bad as it seems and it's all in my head. I just want the headaches and the misery to go away, the self-judgment of not looking normal like I did 6 months ago to go away and to not wake up fearing seeing my reflection. My family are sick of me talking about my fears because I have suffered from hypochondria/health anxieties in the past and know that sometimes my autism triggers these obsessions but I am at the end of my tether and don't know who to turn to. I am seeing a CBT specialist and won't be seeing her for another couple of weeks, but I feel like I'm going around the circles. I just want this all to end.