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stop being afraidi am so terribly afraid of everything. i think people will laugh at me all the time. i never show my feelings for fear of being laughed at, and hide who i am from my family. they know barely noting about me. i walk on the street afraid, because i think evey man is a potential rapist; yet, i am gay, i desire men. i rarely demonstrate true joy. i create different personalities for each group of friends, because i'm so afraid that anyone might know all of the facets of me. i make everyone like me, even if it means becoming a theatrical character with but little resemblance of my true self. i don't tell my fears to anyone. i just want someone that will accept everything i am, but how can that happen, if i don't let anyone come close?
you see me trying to climb on this pole, but i'm just hiding the pain that's deep in my soul.
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Re: stop being afraidi just can't stop wondering how different things would have been, had i not been ruined as a child. i would now be happy and doing the things i love, and loving people.
you see me trying to climb on this pole, but i'm just hiding the pain that's deep in my soul.
Re: stop being afraidYou know, we're quite the same. I also want someone who will accept me for who I am. I always changed myself so that people will like me. But I'm tired. Its also not that easy to let people be close to you because most of the time, they judge, and they dont understand. But I wait. I know. I know someone will come. And all of this have a reason. So just stay strong.
Re: stop being afraidwe need to be sure of who we are, so the opinions of others does not impact us so much.
you see me trying to climb on this pole, but i'm just hiding the pain that's deep in my soul.
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