Sat 4 February
Clean since date: Fri 3 February
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will, not mine be done.
Remember everyday: Keep repeating “God’s will” OUT LOUD as much as you can. Even if you can only whisper or mouth it. Failing all that say it in your head but constantly keep saying it!
Acted out yesterday (paid for sex). Like the last time, it’s counter-prodcutive to stew on it and dwell on it feeling guilty so into action again! God is telling me that I need to push other people harder in the program down the 12 steps, asking them how many meetings they go to, asking them what actions they have taken for recovery and spirituality that day. I can’t worry about treadinbg on egg shells or affecting someone’s pride. I know I want other people to push me harder down the 12 steps etc. and I need to start thinking about helping other people in their recovery more. I think it will help me be less self-centred and less thinking about myself.
So I’ll start here. If YOU’RE reading this and are fighting an addiction (fighting yourself), forget about Jeff for a minute. What have YOU done today for YOUR recovery?
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Not enough. I acted out online today. It's been a while though and like you say, just have to pick oneself back up. I'm sorry to see you tripped up, but while I haven't exactly been keeping track of you, it does seem every time, it's longer between relapses? You remain an inspiration.
ISFP. And a bunch of weirdness.
We do not delete posts.
Let it go.
Without (forum) rules, we all might as well be up in a tree flinging our crap at each other.
Hey Snaga, just read this. Yeah I was 55 days sober and the first time I've been sober of all sexual activity for any length of time since I was a teenager. The longer runs I've had in the past which I mentioned earlier in this blog weren't proper sober runs (they were the sex addiction equivalent of swapping beer for wine to use alcoholism as a metaphor). Hope you're doing well bud.
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