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My DID System Map 2013

Permanent Linkby tomboy24 on Fri Feb 15, 2013 12:10 am

*First Level*:

-- Kat, 24
-Role: Protector
-Ex-role: Abuser-Protector
-Type: Apparently Normal Part (ANP) with Emotional Part (EP) tendencies
-Previous name(s): Katherine, Kataki
-Believed to have "as an alter": Anger Management Issues, slight PTSD
-About: Defends and protects Cassandra and other alters from harm. Provides guidance, criticism, and strength. Is powerful, unafraid to be physical with people, can be violent, rough, has a dangerous temper, slightly antisocial, blunt, realistic, can be negative, strong, never wavers or breaks under stress, untrusting, stubborn, sarcastic. Usually has a "f*#k-off" attitude.

Is an older sister and somewhat of a father-figure to Cassandra and other alters. Has a general hatred for males, usually only looks to use them for own personal gain. Approves of Cassandra's boyfriend Michael/Mike, used to date him and can see herself dating him again, still loves/cares for him but prefers to have her freedom and be single right now (however, she remains respectful/loyal to Mike when necessary/appropriate).

Is slightly bisexual, mainly preferring guys but also having interests in girls.


-- Rain, 23
-Previous name(s): Riyoku
-Role: Caretaker
-Type: ANP
-Believed to have "as an alter": Slight OCD, Possibly slight PTSD, Slight Depression
-About: Was the main opponent of Kataki when she was abusive to Cassandra and other alters. Still disagrees with Kat/Kataki at times, but both are learning to co-exist peacefully with each other and work well together. Provides guidance, comfort, reassurance, and advice. Is supportive, strong, optimistic, determined, confident yet humble, stands up for herself/her views/her beliefs, gives everything her best effort, is wise and thoughtful.

Younger sister to Kat/Katherine, older sister to Cassandra and other alters. Is a mother-figure to everyone. Very forgiving and selfless. Is also Michael's girlfriend, and desires a long-term relationship with him, hopefully ending in marriage. Is very loyal to him.

Is straight and only attracted to males.


-- Cassandra, 21
-Role: Host
-Type: ANP
-Officially Diagnosed With: Depression, Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Visual Hallucinations- Cause Unknown, and Possible DID (thanks to a skeptical psychologist)
-Possible Additional Diagnoses (things we believe we may have and want to be evaluated for): OCD, (Slight) Autism, DID (for certain, not "possible")
-About: Deals with everyday life and attempts to help "evenly express" alters' feelings, thoughts, etc. Shy at first, friendly, helpful, caring, selfless, open-minded, emotional, low confidence, can get easily stressed, often indecisive, responsible, goal-oriented, sometimes impulsive.

Still a teen at heart, being unsure of herself, having trouble living on her own, and wanting to just have fun in life. Loyal to her boyfriend Michael and loves him, although isn't as sure of her desire to be with/stay with him as she used to be. Finds herself wanting to space/freedom more often. She does know that so far, she eventually wants to marry him.

Is slightly bisexual. Finds both guys and girls equally attractive, but prefers to be with and date guys.


-- Shay/Shadow, 20
-Role: Possible Memory/Emotion Holder/Keeper, or Memory Recorder/Keeper
-Type: Possible ANP with EP tendencies
-Believed to have "as an alter": Autism, OCD, Anxiety, Possibly Slight Insomnia
-About: Usually rather quiet, not very social, somewhat shy, prefers to do activities by herself, has "tics" that she can't control (usually physical, like a hand "wave" or something), is easily stressed/overwhelmed, prefers to be as independent as possible, prone to emotional outbursts- especially when overwhelmed/stressed, is easily frustrated, gives everything her best effort, has trouble connecting with others and expressing herself, dislikes change (in plans, schedules, routines, etc), and has perseverance.

Finds it hard to adjust to adulthood, and often acts more like a teen, with her maturity levels sometimes being similar to those of a child. Wishes to do/try her best to lead a successful life while having a life she enjoys at the same time. Does not express any desire to be in a relationship (nor does she express any romantic interest towards anyone/any gender), though likes Cassandra's boyfriend Michael as a friend and usually enjoys spending time with him.

Does not yet know what sexuality preference she is/has, exactly.


-- L.C. & Luna Crystal, 16
-Roles: Memory & Emotion Holders/Keepers
-Types: both are EP’s
-L.C. aka "Lost Child":
-About L.C.: Believed to have "as an alter": Slight OCD, Anorexia, Insomnia, PTSD, Depression
Is our "breaking point". Often depressed, unhappy, blunt, negative, apathetic, untrusting, suicidal, usually has low self-esteem and low confidence, is rather "butch"/"boyish", recalls bad memories better than all others, remembers painful times vividly, is often an outlet for overwhelming emotions. Usually has a slight to moderate stutter unless around a person she's comfortable with and/or trusts, or unless drunk and/or high.

Is Luna's twin, and like a little, but independent, sister to Cassandra, Rain, and Kat. Rather untrusting towards males, but feels safe with Cassandra's boyfriend Mike and her old friend, David. Likes Mike as a friend.

Is a lesbian and desires a relationship with a girl.

-Luna aka Luna Crystal aka "L.C.":
-About Luna: Believed to have "as an alter": OCD, Anorexia, Insomnia, Extreme PTSD, Extreme Depression, Social Anxiety, General Anxiety, Slight Paranoia, Visual (and possibly Auditory) Hallucinations- Cause Unknown
Is our "breaking point". Often depressed, sad, unhappy, unsure of herself, shy, negative, apathetic, untrusting, sometimes paranoid, suicidal, has extremely low self-esteem and low confidence, recalls bad memories better than all others, remembers painful times very vividly, is often an outlet for overwhelming emotions. Has a moderate to extreme stutter unless she is in an "apathetic calm" during/after a stressful or traumatic situation.

Is L.C.'s twin, and like a little, but independent, sister to Cassandra, Rain, and Kat. Extremely untrusting towards males and has a general fear of them, as well as a general hatred for them. Feels safe with Cassandra's boyfriend Mike and trusts him. Also likes Mike as a friend.

Is completely asexual and has no desire for any romantic/sexual relationship whatsoever.


-- Ray, 10-11
-Role: Memory & Emotion Holder/Keeper
-Type: EP
-Believed to have "as an alter": Extreme PTSD, General Anxiety, Slight Agoraphobia
-About: Is the breaking point of extreme emotions/stress (for example, extreme fear, confusion, or helplessness). Reverts to basic instincts and animalistic actions/thought processes. Very shy, meek, submissive, easily overwhelmed, easily stressed, easily scared, untrusting, very animalistic, dislikes loud noises, dislikes sudden movements, wary of new people, sees herself as having "omega" status. Prefers to stay indoors, dislikes the dark and open spaces. Can react violently if feeling threatened or cornered. Relies heavily on actions, body language, and noises rather than words to communicate. Sentences are broken/choppy, often incomplete, and vocabulary is limited.

She's more dog-like than human, treated as the "pet" of the group. Is not very independent but is intelligent. Sees Kat as the "alpha"/leader. Trusts and loves Mike, sees him as her "mate" and will remain loyal to him.
Physical appearance according to her : mostly human but part husky. (Sees Kat as untamed, as an alpha wolf. Sees herself as tamed and submissive, as a breed of dog). Sees herself as having chin-length auburn-red hair, red/white dog ears, green eyes, human face/body, paws instead of hands/feet, and a red/white husky tail.

Is straight and only attracted to males.


-- Cassie, 8
-Role: Emotion Expersser, Memory Holder/Keeper
-Ex-role: (Possible first) Host
-Type: EP with ANP tendencies
-Believed to have "as an alter": ADHD, Slight Autism, PTSD, (Slight) Depression
-About: Is Cassandra's/our's ignored and abandoned childhood and the remainder of childish needs that were never met. Very childish but can be mature for her age. Unafraid to cry, is scared easily, dislikes being alone, not very independent, needs comfort often. Shy at first. Very playful, loves her stuffed animals. Often misses her mom and who her dad used to be.

One of the "baby sisters" of the group. Loves Mikey (aka Cassandra's boyfriend Mike), has a huge little-girl crush on him and they are "dating".
Seems straight, though it doesn't really matter and she's really too young to care/know.


-- Lynn, 2
-Previous name(s): Gertrude
-Role: Emotion Expresser
-Type: EP
-Believed to have "as an alter": Selective Mutism, (Possibly) Slight Autism
-About: She is more of Cassandra's unmet childhood needs, only with an earlier start than Cassie. She's the one who misses mom and dad, who wants to go home, and who wants nothing more than to be held and comforted. She's easily scared, often fussy, cries easily, and doesn't know that mom is dead, nor does she know that dad moved away and she doesn't know why she's not in her old house/room. She has nightmares, is afraid of the dark, and is very dependent on other people. She likes cartoons, stuffed animals, her sippy cup, her binky, and coloring.

She has the mind-set of a 2 year old.This often makes Cassandra and others feel like a burden upon Mike. Lynn likes and seems to trust Mike, and sees him as a "babysitter". She misses her mom and dad very much and would give anything to go home.




*Second Level*:

-- Marie, 29
-Role: Caretaker, Protector
-Type: ANP
-Believed to have "as an alter": (nothing so far)
-About: Is very much like a mixture of Rain and Kat. Has Rain's maturity, self-control, ability to keep a clear head, logical thinking, and caring nature while also having Kat's ability to have/express intense emotions, ability to be rough/violent if/when necessary, and a "fighter's" nature/characteristics. Provides care for the littles (mainly Cassidy), and supervision for mainly the Second Level, but if needed the system as a whole.

Approves of Cassandra's boyfriend, Mike/Michael, but does not like him romantically herself. Does like him as a friend and trusts him, though. Prefers to be single right now and has little to no interest in a relationship.

Is mostly straight, preferring and mainly being attracted to guys, but can appreciate girls and feel attraction for them at times.


-- Valera, 24
-Role: Protector, Emotion/Memory Holder/Keeper
-Type: ANP with EP tendencies
-Believed to have "as an alter": (Possible) Anger Management Issues
-About: Also goes by "fraulein". (Valera: Russian form of Valerie, meaning "strong"). A mixture of Rebel and Kat/Kataki. Usually serious or reserved, realistic, willing to work to get what she wants but will break rules to do so. Likes to break rules, enjoys partying every now and then, likes to have fun as long as it doesn't interfere with her path to her goals. Independent, doesn't like to rely on anyone or receive help. Has a temper, but usually keeps it in check until an appropriate time. Ultimately just wants to have fun in life but willing to work to be able to do so.

Sees herself as A.'s girl. Is willing to wait for him, run away with him (even if it means throwing her life away), go into business with him, anything to keep that chance of ending up together alive. He was her first love, and she keeps loving him despite how he's changed. Though she's been in hiding, she's aware of everything that's been going on. She's unsure of Mike, sees him as simply an outlet for sexual frustration for now, and still favors A. completely. Considers herself to be of Russian descent though the body is not.

Is slightly bisexual. Prefers guys, but can be equally attracted to both males and females.


-- Dallas & Damone, 19
-Dallas' role: Protector
-Type: ANP with EP tendencies
-Believed to have "as an alter": (Slight) Anger Management Issues, Possible slight PTSD
-About: Is competitive, realistic, polite (unless met with rudeness), usually good-natured, can be violent, can have a dangerous temper, blunt, strong, stubborn, sarcastic, sometimes a jokester, usually at least somewhat friendly. Usually has a "###$" attitude overall, though. Is like a mixture of a "jock" and a "bad boy".

Likes Mike as a friend, but that's it.

Is straight and attracted to girls only. Desires a relationship with a girl.

-Damone's role: Memory/Emotion Holder/Keeper
-Type: EP
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Extreme PTSD, Visual Hallucinations- Cause Unknown, Extreme Anxiety, Slight OCD, Slight Depression
-About: Rather quite, very shy, usually nervous/anxious, isn’t very social, can be very sarcastic, usually very polite, often unhappy, unsure of himself, wary of trusting others, sometimes paranoid, has extremely low self-esteem and low confidence, recalls bad memories better than all others, remembers painful times very vividly, often experiences “acid flashbacks” due to a bad first trip (mainly due to our stupid friends giving us too much for a first time), is usually easily overwhelmed/stressed.

Likes Mike as a friend, though has had some confusing feelings towards him before.

Is most likely homosexual (though he remains uncertain right now, probably mainly due to the fact that he still thinks he “has” to be straight). Desires a relationship at times despite sexuality preference uncertainty.


-- Rebel, 18 (Is now Phenix, 21, explained further at the end)
-Role: Memory/Emotion Holder/Keeper, Emotion Expresser
-Type: EP with ANP tendencies
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Slight PTSD, Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, Possible slight Kleptomania
-About: Also goes by "Sandra/Sandy/Sandra-Dee". Outgoing, bold, upfront, loves to party and have fun, social, sarcastic, loves to joke around, hates following rules, hated school and homework, just wants to have fun in life. Loves adventure. Is a "partier". A bit of a kleptomaniac, usually can't help but snag 1 or 2 small things that aren't nailed down in places. Loves to just let loose and be wild and spontaneous, but likes to have friends to do it with.
Loves J., always did, saw herself as "his girl". She went into hiding around the summer of 2009 after not being able to cope with certain things. She used to know nothing of what had happened since the summer of 2009. She used to think she was still dating J. and still living at her/our old apartment on Allen. She has had memory issues less often now and is currently up-to-date on everything. Kinda likes Mike, but mainly sees him as annoying and has no romantic interest in him.

Is mainly straight, preferring and mostly attracted to guys, but can feel attraction for girls and has no problem acting on it if she does.

- Phenix, 21 (used to go by Rebel)
-Role: same as above
-Type: same as above
-Believe to have “as an alter”: same as above
-About: Used to be Rebel, but is a bit more “grown up” now (has the ability to be a bit more mature, have a better sense of responsibility, etc. Has moved on from J (at least for the most part), but will never forget him. Still loves to party and is still outgoing and everything, though). No longer has any memory issues.

Sees Mike as more of a friend now, but still has no romantic interest in him.


-- Kyra, 13
-Type: ANP with EP tendencies
-Role: An "inside helper" for now, Possibly a “back-up” host-in-training
-Ex-role: Host (for 1 year)
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Claustrophobia, (Possibly) Anxiety, Slight Depression, (Possibly) Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder
-Her Story:
Kyra used to be 21 yrs old, but she had grown up “inside” in her own reality. After 8th grade, the year she was host, Kyra went “inside”, “living” and “growing up” there, in her own reality inside our “inner/mental” world. So, she aged with the body, but she had no knowledge of reality, or what was really happening, or the outside world, or anything like that. She thought her world and what happened in her world was reality, since to her, it seemed like reality and it was real. According to her, on the day she resurfaced, she was “sent through” a time-warp thing, where she was “flying” through our real timeline/memories from reality/what’s actually happened in our life. She said she heard a voice saying things like “It would be too difficult for you to be 21. Come back to being 13.” She was shown her memories of her reality and being 21 fading away, and was shown our memories/memories of reality/the outside world in their place. The next thing she knew, she was “out”.
Our theory is that it would’ve been too difficult for Kyra to stay 21 and have all of her memories as if they were still real, as that could lead to her getting very confused with what was really going on very quickly. She still does get confused, as the memories haven’t been gotten rid of completely, but it’s slowly getting easier for her to tell which memories actually happened/are actually real. We also think that it would’ve been too hard on Kyra to adjust to such a different reality if she had stayed 21. We believe she had to return to being 13 because she never truly grew up, not in reality or on the outside at least, and so she had to return to the age she was when she was last “out”.

Kyra is spunky, sarcastic, blunt, and learning what it’s like to actually be able to act/be 13. (When she/the body was 13, our environment didn’t allow us to act our age. Kyra’s exploring the freedom she has now to act her “age” and “be” 13). She’s still adjusting to the fact that she has DID and the voices she heard when she hosted weren’t/aren’t “just voices”, and she’s still adjusting to reality and life in the outside world, but it’s slowly getting easier/better for her.

Is single. Doesn’t really like Cassandra’s boyfriend, Mike. Sees him as being very old, and can’t see how any of “her voices” can be dating him. She mainly sees him as an annoying older-brother figure, and has no other interest in him, nor will she most likely. Her only romantic interest is one of our old friends from 8th grade (the year Kyra hosted). She really likes him and would like to be in a relationship with him, but knows she can’t.


-- Cassidy, 8
-Role: Denial Holder/Keeper, Emotion Holder/Keeper
-Type: EP
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Antisocial Personality Disorder, Possible PTSD
-About: Is Cassie’s/our denial, basically. She believes/thinks that we still live at home with our parents and that our mom is still alive (though neither of these things are true). Is also all of Cassie’s/our feelings and thoughts that we considered to be “sinister” or “bad”.
Usually quite despite almost always singing/humming the Freddy Kreuger song. Is prone to violent outbursts that don’t always seem provoked. Is rather sneaky, clever (for a kid), usually speaks in either a sarcastic or demeaning manner, has a dark sense of humor and is rather dark in general, can be seen as “disturbing”, is very untrusting of others, usually equates people/animals to objects and is rather uncaring towards anyone/anything other than herself, usually does not show any other emotions aside from anger, but is still very much a child.

Is wary about Cassandra’s boyfriend Mike, and sees him as an annoying babysitter. She tolerates him more than she likes him, though she likes that he allows her to do stuff (such as rip up her sketchbook paper or break her colored pencils if she wants to).


-- Kuro, black cat; alter or "inside"/"mental" pet? – unknown for now
-Role: unknown, might not have one




*The Darkness*:

-- "Hannibal", ?
--Role: Abuser-Protector
-Type: Seems to be an ANP with EP tendencies
-Believed to have "as an alter": Extreme Anger Management Issues
-About: Is a self-destructive, self-punishing alter. Does not consider himself to be a part of us. Has never given a name for himself. Very manipulative, persuasive, violent, cruel, abusive, controlling, apathetic to the well-being of the other alters. Enjoys self-mutilation, but since he does not see himself as part of the system he does not see it as "self" mutilation. His voice is not always heard and his presence is not always there or detected. Seemingly emotionless, has an even/monotone voice. Mainly abusive to Kat; his abuse is what helped her to turn angry and abusive towards Cassandra and the other alters. His actions were done out of love for Kat and out of a desire to make her invincible and strong. Prefers using others to do his bidding. Nicknamed "Hannibal" for the violent and destructive behaviour mirrored in the movies with "Hannibal 'The Cannibal' Lecter". Instead of inflicting harm upon others, he inflicts harm upon the "host" and other personalities, who he views as "others" that are separate from himself.

Age unknown, most likely older than Kat but has not been around as long as she has. (I've heard Kat's voice as long as I can remember, his first noticeable appearance through abusing Kat was when I was 13 years old. I did not hear his voice until I was 16/17 years old).


-- "Big Ryan", ?
-Role: Abuser Introject, Denial Holder/Keeper
-Type: Unknown
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Denial, ?
-About: Is currently in denial about being an alter, having DID, etc. Is also in denial that there was any trauma/traumatic experiences in their/our life. Very stubborn, persuasive, argumentative, and has a violent temper. Is very polite until other people are either rude or provoke in some way. Very realistic, can often be a pessimist, and can be extremely blunt. Holds the view that peoples’ lives are their lives, theirs to deal with, theirs to cope with, and that people shouldn’t “dump” their problems/issues on to other people (thus, is not a very open person, and is not a fan of the idea of therapy). Not much else is known about her yet.


-- Keith/"Little Ryan", 5
-Role: ?, Possible Memory/Emotion Holder/Keeper
-Type: Possible EP, uncertain
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Possible PTSD
-About: Is rather shy, quiet, and compliant. Is extremely afraid of the dark and seems to have a fear of going to sleep as well. Seems to be fearful of punishment for doing things that can be seen as wrong, and fears “talking too much”. Not much else is known about him yet.




*Alters that have no “set place” inside the mind/"inner world"/"mental world"*:

-- Hawk, age unknown
-Role: System Manager
-Type: Seems to be an ANP, possibly with EP tendencies
-Believed to have “as an alter”: unknown
-About: Very bold, friendly, outgoing, and generally positive. Has great self-confidence and self-esteem. Loves to have fun and try out new things. Can be very blunt, and can be extremely sarcastic. Loves to joke around and doesn’t like to take things too seriously (though can be very serious when needed). Is rather caring, but can easily be completely uncaring as well. Often reacts to others- if someone is rude to her first, she will be rude back, that type of thing, though has the maturity to be the “bigger person” if necessary. Can act as both a protector and caretaker. Loves the colors red and orange, loves the mohawk hairstyle, and loves Foamy the Squirrel.

Is asexual so far, having/showing no interest in either gender nor sex in general. Has no desire for a relationship of any kind with anyone. Approves of Mike being Cassandra’s/Rain’s boyfriend, but sees him only as a friend.


-- Maiingan, ageless
-Role: Possible Internalized Self Helper (ISH)/Possible Gatekeeper
-Type: (most likely) ANP
-Believed to have “as an alter”: nothing
-About: Acts like a “spirit guide”, and often “gives” epiphanies/realizations. Acts like a “voice of wisdom”. Seems to handle things inside for the most part. Seems to help alters “surface”/”resurface” so that they can be known, learned about, made aware of, etc. Seems to try and help, to some extent, regulate which alters are “out” and when (including “putting” alters that can handle a situation best “out” in control at times). Not much else is known about her.




*Alters that recently “(re)surfaced”*:

-- “Blank”, age uncertain, possibly around 10-12 yrs old
-Role: ?, Possible Memory Holder/Keeper
-Type: Possible EP, uncertain
-Believed to have “as an alter”: (Possibly Extreme) PTSD
-About: Attempts to say, do, act, feel, and think whatever/however people want her to say, do, act, feel, and think. Is rather “blank” otherwise. Her thoughts often only consist of the word “blank”, her feelings often stay neutral unless shown/told to react otherwise, and she usually either says nothing at all or only the word “blank”. Has a “need” for orders (what to do, what to say, what/how to feel, what/how to think), does not seem to grasp the concept of personal choice or preference. Not much else is known about her yet.


-- “Pretty”, age uncertain, possibly around 12 yrs old
-Role: ?, Possible Emotion Holder/Keeper
-Type: unknown, Possible EP
-Believed to have “as an alter”: Possible OCD
-About: Has a strong desire to always be “pretty”. Wishes to always dress nice, look nice, wear makeup, etc. Constantly says, “Must be pretty, have to be pretty, got to be pretty, need to make myself pretty”. Not much else is known about her except that she seems to love the color pink.

| Cassandra; Kat/Kataki; Rain/Riyoku; Shay/Shadow; L.C. & Luna; Ray; Cassie; Lynn |
| Prism |
| Marie; Valera; Phenix (Rebel); Dallas & Damone; Kyra; "Blank"; Bridgette; Cassidy |
| "Hannibal"; "Big Ryan"/Ryan; Keith/"Little Ryan"; Kuro |
| Hawk ; The Doctor |
| Aurora (mermaid), werewolf, silent one, black ponytail, Kichijoten, The Master |
| Maiingan |
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