As bad as you were for me.
The drug that kept me sane.
Addictive as a drug inside a vein.
I can't help but miss you.
I pretend you're still there at times.
I felt you fade away into the empty soul you were.
Vanished from my life without any kind of goodbye.
A broken heart and a broken soul.
You had found a place inside my mind.
My mind had become your favourite game.
Through lies, through deception and through pain.
Emotions depleted but strength I shall gain.
You were a human being that suffered behind the snake you were.
Good at wearing masks but desperate for attention.
A user, a loser.
And upon your high horse you shall fall.
And from broken pieces, I shall rise again and grow tall.
I will never forget the moments we were there for one another.
Like your sister, like my brother.
Never understood how we found one another nor connected.
Idealisation of me, to insecurities projected.
Not being a perfect soul myself.
Mistakes I made and so easily swayed.
You knew how to charm.
But its all caused so much harm.
I won't forget you, or helping you from your hole.
But through the wounds you carved into my soul.
Our talks, and troubles, my foolish gullibility.
I have no idea if you will miss me after I all tried to do.
In the end It was all about you.
I only ever cared as a friend with empathy and with trust.
But this friendship evaporated so from ashes to ashes and dust to dust.
Its gone for good. Just like it should.
I loved someone else, but as a friend you were one.
But its always going to be late because the damage has been done.