Our partner

broken into pieces
when you feel so fragile but can't properly break.
when you feel so empty yet you deeply ache.
Life is pulling you in all different directions like the wind.
But you're never really going anywhere. Just a victim.
All you know how to talk about is to justify yourself or whatever you used to do in life or what has influenced you its so hard to be genuine and really know what you do
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letting go
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BITS & PIECES (c) 2014
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LOVE
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my suicide note
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letting go

Permanent Linkby thefool on Tue Oct 21, 2014 10:33 pm

As bad as you were for me.

The drug that kept me sane.

Addictive as a drug inside a vein.

I can't help but miss you.

I pretend you're still there at times.

I felt you fade away into the empty soul you were.

Vanished from my life without any kind of goodbye.

A broken heart and a broken soul.

You had found a place inside my mind.

My mind had become your favourite game.

Through lies, through deception and through pain.

Emotions depleted but strength I shall gain.

You were a human being that suffered behind the snake you were.

Good at wearing masks but desperate for attention.

A user, a loser.

And upon your high horse you shall fall.

And from broken pieces, I shall rise again and grow tall.

I will never forget the moments we were there for one another.

Like your sister, like my brother.

Never understood how we found one another nor connected.

Idealisation of me, to insecurities projected.

Not being a perfect soul myself.

Mistakes I made and so easily swayed.

You knew how to charm.

But its all caused so much harm.

I won't forget you, or helping you from your hole.


But through the wounds you carved into my soul.

Our talks, and troubles, my foolish gullibility.

I have no idea if you will miss me after I all tried to do.

In the end It was all about you.

I only ever cared as a friend with empathy and with trust.

But this friendship evaporated so from ashes to ashes and dust to dust.

Its gone for good. Just like it should.

I loved someone else, but as a friend you were one.


But its always going to be late because the damage has been done.

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BITS & PIECES (c) 2014

Permanent Linkby thefool on Tue Oct 21, 2014 10:01 pm

TEARS
Let the tears flow. Allow yourself to cry. Time will always heal. Tears will always dry.

DEMONS WITHIN
She had her flaws, her dark side, her withdrawals and pride. But slowly, whether it was on purpose or accidental she caused her own suicide.


Alot of great art, beauty and creativity comes from some form of pain. But a lot of great art comes from broken souls that turn to a needle or a pipe and a lot of great art goes down the drain.

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LOVE

Permanent Linkby thefool on Tue Oct 21, 2014 9:48 pm

Love




I have love for you

Love that's genuine and true.

As more than a friend & on a soul level

Even when I lash out & become the devil.


But you are my rock through the pain.

I never meant to come across so vain.

I could never set you free.

You think its all about me.

I only ever hoped someday it could become "we."

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my suicide note

Permanent Linkby thefool on Tue Oct 21, 2014 7:25 am

I am suffering more pain that one can endure
Please help me believe that there has to be a cure
I have somehow climbed inside the deepest part of mind
To the darkest place I could find
Is anybody out there? Is there anybody out there at all?
From upon my high horse, from grace I fall
I am back in this hole I was stuck in before
I know that there is nothing worse than bipolar’s who whine
But I promise that in this poem this will be my third last line
I just wanted the happiness promised, I gave away life, I miss being high
But for now I leave you with my sincerest goodbye.

Rebecca (C)

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My Life = rides of chaos.

Permanent Linkby thefool on Tue Aug 09, 2011 9:31 am

Well if it possible to have travelled in any every single direction and gone down every single road without actually going anywhere or moving forward that is how I would describe my life. The only thing that moves around me, back, forth, is time. Time and everybody else around me. I stop, i fall apart all over again i fall into so many holes and i can't escape the holes but maybe because what i need to escape is myself. I am my only problem in the end. I yell out for people to wait, wait up i need a friend. I need someone to help me and guide me along i can't catch up alone after they promised they would be a friend. They can't hear me call out anymore .... they don't seem to wait. Nobody seems to wait and be patient or accept... this is life. Just tell me where to go, which way, what to do i will be that person if you love me. I will make you like me. I am angry at everyone who i am not good enough for its not them its me ... i am a burden, a curse, a fraud to society people believe i am good sometimes still but i am bad, i have no long term amazing goal or talent. I whinge a lot but i am desperate bitter and over my own mistakes. I want the past fixed. It can't be fixed but people can forgive i forgive all the time even if i have 1000 grudges once fixed i am over it.

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