I went to see my therapist today. I can't remember most of the session because he spoke to one of the ones who is mute and will only write. I have no idea what might have been written or if it would have been any help to him in dealing with me. Last session he read us a children's story called "The Rainbow Fish". The little ones enjoyed it. He wanted to read us Dr Seuss today but he had left it in his car. For some reason we feel apprehensive about that. I think we might have had one of those books when we were little but I could never remember it... If he suggests it again, hopefully someone older can check that it will be ok first.
Later in the day my housemate invited me to go to coffee with him and my ex-boyfriend. I went and we all did the crossword. I think I need to stop seeing my ex-boyfriend. Later in the day I realized I had been to coffee with both of them and hadn't remembered. I think I am still heavily dissociating the time I've spent with my ex-boyfriend because of my past experiences of being abused by him.
It was a beautiful, sunny day today. I hope it is like that again tomorrow. I would like to go for a long walk and get some more washing done...