I keep feeling like the solution is inside me somewhere. Is there a solution where her and I could be happy? I would die for it. But what about our problems? If she gave us another chance what would change? How can I change it when someone else takes over the second bad and disturbed emotions start creeping up on us?

The kid and his pal...they are the same as her "bad" part. Only see the bad. Only know extremely negative reactions. I am thankful this didn't go beyond a smashed phone and breaking our hand. But what if she had hit us in the car? Would we have hit back?