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10/06/11 - It's Been A While, Hasn't It? by MK91 on Thu Oct 06, 2011 10:09 am
I haven't had much to complain about in Johann's mind before tonight.
Tonight Johann came over and we had a serious discussion about how he always seems paranoid that I'm going to break up with him or leave him for whatever reason when I assure him there is not a doubt in my mind that I ever will. Luke, who was fully in possession with none of the others around him like they usually were, admitted that he wasn't used to being out in control the way that he has been for the last week or so, and broke down on me. He told me that not only was it weird to look at his mother and realize she looked a lot older than the last time he had seen her (eighteen years ago), but to also be informed that his mother has serious problems with her back that require a high-risk surgery was not only scaring him, it was scaring everyone.
To top it all off, Kiddo was ill and hiding in his room, Chibi was hiding in his room, and Johnny and Jack were depressed and drinking in their living room. I've known Johnny to drink whenever he's upset, but Jack? It has to be something really bad if it pushed Jack to that extreme.
Kiddo eventually came out and told me he was okay, he was just in a lot of pain, but after spending a bit of time with me started to act like his old self. I still don't know precisely what's wrong with him, but I heard that he and Johnny nearly merged the other night because of something Johnny did, but Kiddo managed to prevent it by maintaining a piece of himself, thereby temporarily negating Johnny's connection to him. I know that Kiddo and Johnny want to remain separate, but because Kiddo is the same personality as Johnny, only a few years younger, I'm wondering how long they can pull it off before they are forced to merge...
Johnny came out and apologized for everything he and the others had done (in 'not trusting me') and in his depressed/drunk state started muttering something about people dying and a lot more blood than anyone should see before passing out and leaving Jack in possession. Jack also apologized and when I asked him if he was okay, he immediately told me no. Last response I'd ever expect from Jack who always insists he has everything under control. Jack was also muttering something to the effect of what Johnny was muttering about, but didn't want to talk about it.
Before Johann went home for the night I had to insist that Jack and Johnny both go to bed for the sake of I didn't want any of their mind intoxicated (even if there wasn't literally any alcohol in their body) while driving home, which is half an hour from where I live. So I left Luke in possession again, with the promise he would keep an eye on them.
I don't know what's upsetting Jack and Johnny so much. I worry about Johnny when he's upset especially, because he tends to get sick. He was already complaining he felt like throwing up when he got into possession, and despite my being emetophobic (throw up-phobic) I told him that because he's the alter who seems sick the most often and needs to be taken care of for it, I would probably be more worried about taking care of him than the throw up itself. I asked why Johnny seemed to always be the sick alter, and Johnny claimed it had something to do with his resolve to NOT be sick therefore the others tend to throw him into possession when the body is ill. I guess that's why now even when the body isn't ill Johnny has developed a habit of being ill whenever he's upset. =\
I don't think I'll get to see Johann until Friday, so I guess I'll just have to wait and see when I talk to him tomorrow how everyone's doing. If those two are still drinking, we're going to have problems.
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