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identifying triggers by colburt91 on Fri Oct 19, 2012 12:37 am
Well since I was home most of the day due to a medication allergic reaction I was able to sit down and think of the most prominent triggers I have for both Hypomania and agitation/anxiety.
First and foremost is my boss at work, I cannot even go close to her without feeling an intense amount of anxiety/irritation mainly because of problems we've had in the past. Even the thought of being in the same building puts me off the rocker.
Second is my workload...when hypomanic I am fine with it and get everything done and fast...but as the day wears on I get more and more irritated at the amount and that I am actually doing wayyyy too much of someone elses work. When mixed my workload always puts me in a depressive state and I get nothing done...absolutely nothing and that sends me deeper until I need a couple days off to bring myself together(rarely works)
Caffeine, mmm coffee, always puts me in hypomania if I have anymore then two a day. This stimulant I abuse way to often.
Alcohol is always a trigger for hypomania, that is only one beer can trigger it, thats a stimulant I rarely use and basically cut out. But I love the temporary "high" it gives.
Cocky people, when mixed/depressed, irritate me the worst and throws me into rage filled hypomania and will do EVERYTHING in my power to prove them wrong in some way or another. Gives me a boost and I will do anything to provide myself with this boost.
Noise, yelling/talking loud/ un-needed noise, always puts me into a hypomania state where I my anxiety levels scream high and irritation at its worst.

Then comes my depressive triggers;
Mainly my biggest is everytime I come off a high period I will plummet very low and low indeed.
But finances will put me even lower...lowest of low is finances, broken promises, lies and critism towards me. I have found my paranoia is always onset when I am depressed and always thinking people are talking about me behind my back. It happens usually on a daily basis. Another onset/trigger for my depressive episodes comes from any small thing that to a normal person is just another problem that can be fixed easily....but for me it isn't. It'll send me into a deep deep depression which isn't good.
My depressive episodes over the years I have learned to manipulate and decieve others in thinking I am as bad as I am...but for the past few months I cannot control them and hide the way I could before and it bothers me even more. Along comes racing thoughts or self harm and suicidal thinking. I use sleep as my main coping method if I can get to sleep. Thoughts racing usually prevents sleeping but I've seen another route around this and that is going for a long drive somewhere away from society and triggers.

Along comes delusions and extreme paranoia when I am fully low...I hear things every so often...but not all the time.

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