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Sorry, but I have THE best pdoc :P by Living Well on Mon Jun 27, 2011 5:42 am
I asked my pdoc to bill me above the bulk-billing rate. She refused and said we would talk about it next visit. That was today, and we did. She told me that it isn't a one-way street, that she gets an awful lot out of treating me. She said she appreciated the amount of trust I place in her, the amount of honesty and openness I have with her, that I work so hard within my lifestyle to help my illness, that even when I am terrified I will still give her suggestions a go; and that I have an open mind and flexibility. She made me cry, no one has ever accepted me for who I am before. Nobody who has known me for any length of time and gone through the good and the bad have ever given me credit for how hard I work at being well and no one has ever told me they get heaps out of their connection with me. I'm still going to get her a gift for advocating for me in such a way that saved my life, but it was a lovely thing for her to say this morning.
I told my pdoc that the Seroquel take 9/10ths of the intensity out of my emotions and that my inner core is remaining intact despite what life is throwing me atm (in just the first week I have been taking it). She was delighted to hear that - 21 years in the process of trying to get that result - she had a smile from ear to ear. But one step at a time, nevertheless
I asked her about verbal diarrhea and she said that it was part of it, but did mention that I had a glowing presence about me while in a verbose state that made me less irritating - and you wonder why I say I have the best pdoc! lol.
I also asked her about mixed episodes. She said that it was difficult/generally impossible to diagnose via report; it was very much something that is more observable in a hospital setting.
In regards to rapid cycling, she believes that is something that has been created with the introduction of antidepressants to treat the PTSD. She believes once we get the mood stabiliser right, the rapid cycling may dissipate.
She has set me at 50g of sero and 25mg of ago per day with a range to go up to 100g of sero and that 6.25mg Sero can be used as PRM up to twice a day.
I spoke to her about Xmas and especially my 40th birthday next February. To be alone on my birthday is very likely to make me feel my entire life has been a waste. I've got a lot of work to do to lower my expectations around my 40th birthday over the next 8 months.
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