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on Sun May 18, 2014 4:38 pm
So, the new girl from the meetings is out! she is not to be my girlfriend; she flaked. Now what do I do!
GO talk to other women! chat them up! Or go talk to her, get over it and go out with her! thats possible. But the inside of me is screaming, saying hell no! this girl dist me! ###$ her! ; run!
The grocery store girl freaks me out!
I have talked to a women about the SSI stuff! she told me a good women wont worry about it; that made me feel better!
I suppose God creates the situations for me to leave!
Im slowly heading toward relationships! However, girls are blocking things so they can be in control. Im sorry, Your ######6 out! Goodbye... ! Your replaced!
Its getting impossible to deal with the women in the meetings! they are controlling nightmares...
Many people do not want me to get better, they keep blocking me! Possibly I have to ask God for a journey around better choices of people! people that do not attempt to control me!
Im in that middle space to a new life! others are tripping me up! they don't want to see me get better! they are acting like criminals.
Im being blocked at that specific moment I need to connect to the other side! others are aware of this and block that progress...
Im stronger, but still need the right people in my life! I have to get on my knees and trust God! and ask what direction to go in! Im lost at the present moment! Im not sure who to turn to! I have meetings, I have no people!
on Mon Aug 03, 2015 2:34 pm
Oh dear '~' . Just ~2 mnutes ago I went to the kitchen and saw the saucepan with the water I previously put in all boiled out and the stove still on at max. " ^~^ I admit that things like that happen... [ Continued ]
Lonely and Not Sure How to Fix
on Mon Aug 03, 2015 12:30 pm
I've stayed away from relationships for most of my adult life and at 32, I'm lonelier than ever. Why, you might ask have I not entered into a healthy fulfilling relationship since college? First, I've... [ Continued ]
Intro and tv
on Mon Aug 03, 2015 6:26 am
After I've already made one entry I've decided to introduce myself on this blog. I was first diagnosed with BPD in 1999 in Germany at 19 years old. Honestly, I kind of forgot all about it for a long... [ Continued ]
Small brief episode
on Mon Aug 03, 2015 4:17 am
My husband is on vacation this week. He knows that I have Borderline Personality Disorder and knows some of what this means and does to me but I really don't think he's all that informed on it. Anyway,... [ Continued ]
on Mon Aug 03, 2015 2:26 am
intentionally fked things up with the girl from the previous post for some reason i didnt wanna get in a relationship
intentionally fked things up with another girl today although she deserved it for getting... [ Continued ]
Re: Gambling addictions
on Sun Aug 02, 2015 9:41 am
Hi and welcome to the forums (:
The blogs tend to be pretty quiet on the whole and used more for personal reflection but the gambling addiction forum could be helpful for you.
Lots of decent members over... [ Continued ]
by The Brofessor
on Sat Aug 01, 2015 5:17 am
would a pschopath (incapable of love) therefore not exist? sorry i'm not trying to be a dick (seriously i'm not) but i think we are humans surely? or more broadly, animals, or more boradly still, carbon... [ Continued ]
on Sat Aug 01, 2015 12:03 am
sorry - i know it's pretty quiet in the blogs section but people are reading; you have 270 views on this blog entry atm..
the blogs section tends to be more for personal reflection though than for... [ Continued ]
on Fri Jul 31, 2015 4:08 am
Can I not delete or edit my entries? This is ridiculous nobody read this.
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