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Worrying about others and other stuff by OMNICELL on Sat Sep 08, 2012 2:18 am
Im at the point that others are bugging me. If they look at me with disrespect, I don't like it or want it around me or have to be harassed by it...

As I fuse parts of me back into a whole... Im interested in the future and the present... The past becomes memories.. not sidewalk horror shows, or anchors around my neck-brace...

My social skill are getting stronger. The ability to respond is getting slowly better, inch by inch.. Im not fighting it or expecting to much... Im just letting it happen.

Im sensitive to being snubbed by people, as they are not helping me succeed. Im getting mad about it. Im being purposely turned off... Turned of like a kitchen light at night... Its about others controlling me.. I would like to get to the point that others don't have this negative effect on me..

Others manipulating me to get something from me... If they cant manipulate they want nothing to do with me... I would like to get to the point that these people don't have control over me or bother me when Im in the same room.

I like my serenity and don't want others waisting it or trampling me under there feet, turning and tearing me to pieces...


Im reattaching to some memories.. This is a good thing... Im realizing my mind is much weaker then most.. I cannot stay present very long.. I recede inside my brain and become dissociative.

im looking forward to attaching to enough memories that positive results proceed. ive been uncomfortable to react or interact with anything... Anything except expressive things... Mountain biking.. playing drums... playing with clay anxiety ball... At times making pictures, or making music.. However, the creative stuff comes and goes.

its very hard to interact with creative media.. I don't feel safe, it brings up to much pain when I was taken advantage of... Only time will tell if I interact with the better memories that will allow me to express intimately.


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things are looking better by jody on Wed Oct 29, 2014 7:13 pm
if you ever read my posts you will see i have a transgender issue. well the psyc doc has said if i stay stable on this new med he will refere me to a gender clinic. i want to be stable before i undertake...

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I complain too much. by DesLock on Wed Oct 29, 2014 12:29 am
I was speaking to a Bulgarian student today after a lecture. He was going on about how the UK is so fair with its free NHS, its fantastic education and free meals for kids. He was so taken aback by the...

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Arts for fun by Baldwiniclust on Tue Oct 28, 2014 1:11 am
I started painting on my walls for a fun way to express myself and to help me replace some habits I find somehow useless. (have no study what so ever in painting or drawing)
So I start out doing, pretty...

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From the bumbler by xod_s on Mon Oct 27, 2014 5:07 am
"A poem is true if it hangs together.Information points to something else.A poem points to nothing else"-E.M Forster,"Two cheers for democracy" (1951) .

This "Gorillaz vs. The...

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I love my life by star dust on Mon Oct 27, 2014 4:43 am
My Mum just said to me in an evil, hostile, nasty way 'I'm gunna hang myself because of you! I'm gunna do it. When you least expect it. You won't even see it coming but don't worry, I'll do it.'


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Re: things are looking better by Ada on Wed Oct 29, 2014 7:29 pm
Good luck, jody! I hope things do stabilise quickly.

Re: I think I love someone I should'nt...? by Nick123 on Mon Oct 27, 2014 9:36 pm
I don't think there is anything wrong with falling in love with either boys or girls. If this makes you feel right, you should go with it, I think. You seem to be feeling very well about this, try not...

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Re: ME by star dust on Fri Oct 24, 2014 4:17 pm
[quote="C-standard9"]Hey star dust, thanks for sharing! Im looking forward to the next update. Theres always bits and pieces we can all relate to, but Id be lying if I said we have the same story....

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Re: Can't stop hating me. by Ada on Thu Oct 23, 2014 8:52 pm
Fixing people isn't like fixing a broken car. The act of trying to improve something says we're human. Take an Olympic athlete. They constantly try to improve even though they're better at their event...

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Re: Self diagnosed BDD, nobody takes it seriously by Ada on Thu Oct 23, 2014 8:43 pm
You don't need to talk to your family about it if you don't want. Seeing a therapist can be done in total privacy. It's worth confirming with them in advance. But usually they won't give any information...

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