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| Author: | quietgirl2538 [ Sun Jan 28, 2024 1:12 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | A good update |
To grow as a person. To grow as a woman. I am lucky enough to admit that my life has been very good these last few months. I am doing great being single. I am single but I am looking for my Mr. Right. There are still millions or maybe in the billions, of men who are available out in this great ocean of the world. I am single. I'm looking ahead to the future. Of encountering Love. Isn't that what makes the world go round. Love. If we are so lucky to find it. I'm 49. My youngest daughter told me today that I look 45. That I don't look 50. That was so sweet. She is so honest with me at times that it hurts, so for her to tell me this, means it's the truth. Lol. I love my girls. They know it. And I am happy. In all aspects of that word. It's been 9 months that my heart was broken. I'm ok, for a long while now. My heart has healed and I'm single again. As in I am truly available in my heart, if there were a real love entering my life, I am ready for it. I was like this at one time. Ready for love. When my heart is broken, it needed to heal before I was ready to move on. I healed and I am brand new. I have a clean slate. There is that desiring and believing in the beauty of things that was gone when my heart was broken. I am seeing a man, but we are not serious. He doesn't want to ever get serious. I am ok with that. So that is why I am in all honesty, open to love. He is a friend, but that is all. I think he is good-looking, a good man, but he is not for me. Why? Because for there to be a relationship, there needs to be a mutual self-giving from both parties. There is friendship on both of our parts. No more. I don't give of myself, and I am ok with that. I continue to look. Another guy likes me, F. But he lives long-distance. I won't do long-distance relationships. It's what hurt my first relationship with G when I was 21. It was too hard on me. I go from there in looking for a good man. <3 My bipolar has been ok all of these years since at least 2018. I've been stable and on meds that help me. I sleep enough each night, I try to eat well, and I take my meds. At this time, I work a full-time job with little ones in ages of 3-4 years of age. It's Pre-K ages. I am a full-time paraprofessional for almost 2 years now. When I entered the workforce, it was in 2019 and it was so daunting and hard. I'm doing really good now. I won't complain. Lol. I'll treasure these moments of bliss. There is no malice in my heart, only peace and goodwill toward all. Yes, I am very blessed. <3 |
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| Author: | quietgirl2538 [ Sun Dec 03, 2023 3:14 am ] |
| Blog Subject: | Ugh... |
Things here are very good. I'm so over that God-awful person who came into my life and turned it upside down. What was I thinking even considering someone like him. He is not at all what I want in a man. |
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| Author: | quietgirl2538 [ Sun Sep 03, 2023 3:36 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Hope found in M, my hot ex-boyfriend |
I have not written anything because I was not in a good place to write much. I was stunned, shocked, hurt, angry, all kinds of emotions I was processing. A few days ago, I saw with clarity something that I haven't seen in me nor in my life, in the last few months. Hope. I have an ex-boyfriend whose name is M. He's hot! He's so buff and handsome and he is very sweet to me, calls me beautiful and that still makes me feel so good inside. So beautiful. His presence in my life gives me so much hope in men. I don't, for one minute, believe that all men are the same as my recent ex-boyfriend, such as callous and a piece of $#%^. That's what he is whether he believes it or not. He's very low and he doesn't deserve me. That too, is the truth. I believe all people, whether they're men or women, make choices and those choices reflect on them. Mike isn't perfect and we are not together, but he is a reminder to me of men like him existing. One man shouldn't color my view of all men, and it doesn't anymore. It takes a lot for me to lose hope in men, in humanity, but my ex-boyfriend did do that to me. 2 months later with having a good man in my life, I see the truth, that there exists such beauty in the heart of other men. Men such as M. That is my newfound hope. I love the guy and I never want to lose him from my life. In doing that, I choose to remain friends. Because he is a sweetheart who is currently not available and I don't plan for anymore than friendship between us. I am at peace finding the truth in my life, and I have hope in my love life once again. I also find a purpose for me and my future, which is to wait for the right man who can love me like I deserve. <3 |
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| Author: | quietgirl2538 [ Sat Jun 24, 2023 2:24 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Few Details of being wronged |
I was lied to by my ex-boyfriend. I was betrayed by him. I simply trusted and expected only good things to happen between us. Even his dogs (German Shepards) don't know what it's like to be mistreated by him. I thought at first it was someone just saying that there is no future for us. No, it was someone cheating on someone else. It was someone (her) chasing after a man who was taken. This hurts. |
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| Author: | quietgirl2538 [ Tue Jun 13, 2023 4:17 pm ] |
| Blog Subject: | Made a decision |
moving on... |
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