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sorry it has been awhile#13 - lucky #13 it has been awhile since i have been on to blog. this week end i finished up my job and am now a full time wife/mother. last thursday we loaded up and went to his parents and then on to the big city for awhile. i dropped him off at the casino for 2 hrs. we had a meet time in the parking lot well 26min after the meet time he came out. now i had our daughter telling me that she had to pee for about 15min of that time. i was angry with him for being late but he went out of his way to publicly bash me at every step. he admitted that he had drank 8 beers and that i was just getting what i deserve. things were tense all of friday but he had to leave and play cards all nite and then i worked all week end so i did not get to c him that much which i guess was a good thing. i know i have done wrong but DAMMMMITTTT i did not deserve that load of horse $#%^. so we will c
0 Comments Viewed 4225 times will i ever see him really smile at me#11 - i feel so anxious all the time. i feel that at times he hates me with a passion and then other i can see that a little love still remains. the road that i have made is full of empty dreams and broken promises. i am ready to rip that road up and start a new one. build the way it should be...sturdy and strong and will last a life time
0 Comments Viewed 4906 times AAARRRKKKKK!!!!!!!#10 - husband and i have a shared fb page. he left for a meeting and i got on there to look at it. he posted "i am a good enough person to forgive but i am not stupid enough to trust you again" this was posted on a sign above it he wrote "this just about sums it up".......Lord please give me the strength to walk down this road that i have made. maybe one day he will trust me again but i dont see that in the near future. i am going this week end a quite my job (his idea) so that we can spend more time together as a couple and as a family.
0 Comments Viewed 4319 times deep breaths and one more step forwardtoday has been somewhat better. my daughter is acting a little nuts with all the rain and cant go outside to play. every day i love my family even more and every day i am anxious about the future. i can not screw up. lord please please please help me....help me with this problem
0 Comments Viewed 4517 times lord god please help me!!!!#8 - lord god in heaven please help me. i am a sinner and i am on the verge of loosing everything in my life. i am reaching out to you can you please point me in the right direction and guide me to where i need to go. in your name i pray A MEN
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