Ok, first off I'm probably just going to be rambling here. Just a warning.
Idk where to start. Feel so agitated right now. The thoughts are racing, I can barely concentrate. I feel wired. Everyones asleep, nothing to do, which sucks. Not really tired although I have taken all my meds. Seeing my pdoc tomorrow, hope it goes well. Just feeling very off. Haven't been hypo manic or manic in quite sometime. Idk what to do. Maybe another mood stabilizer is needed. Not sure though. I just feel the need to write. I guess that's why I'm posting this. Way too much external stimuli is distracting me and it's getting annoying. It's like everything is louder than it normally is. Then again maybe it's just me. I feel like I'm never going to have long term stabilization. It's like I level out for a few weeks, then fall back into depression or mania. It's getting annoying. Although I wouldn't change myself. Bipolar makes me who I am, and I accept and respect that. Sometimes I wonder why people like me are the ones considered ill. Who's to say what normal is? Maybe that's the mania talking, but I do wonder that sometimes. Starting to wonder if the Zoloft is making me feel manic.
Ok, ramble over.