my life short version

my parents split up when i was 6 months old
dad had access visits for the first few years of my life
but because of physical and emotional abuse (sexual abuse has been suspected but not proven so i dont know if i was sexually abused or not can not remember it) mum went to court to get a order for accesses to stop
at age 3 my behavior problems started and worsted as time went on at age 7 i entered the child mental health system put on meds diagnosed with ADHD RAD ODD (between the ages of 7 to 12) at 12 i was hospitalized for the first time after stabbing my teacher with a pen i went in to a psych ward for children aged 5 to 12.
in year 7 i almost got expelled from school because of behavioral problems
at 14 i was first admitted to a adolescence ward after mum found out i was cutting i spent a week in there and they told my mum that it is normal teenage behaviour
about 16 i was told i had emerging borderline personality disorder and dropped out of school halfway through year 10
at 17 i entered the adult system disability m and put on Tegretol and have a sever allergic reaction and nearly died from it
at 17 diagnosed with intellectual disability (later found i dont have one)
at 18 diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and bipolar
at 19 diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder
at 20 i got arrested for the first time (although i have a long history of violence)
at 21 i went to prison for the first time (i have been in prison 6 times in just 1 and a half years longest 3 months)
at 21 started having anxiety and panic attacks
at 22 no intellectual disability but diagnosed with a learning disorder
i have sapent since i was 14 in and out of hospital since 21 in and out of prison
i have been in the mental health system since i was 7 been on meds since i was 7
i havent completed anything since leaving school i start stuff but never finnish it
i have been in hospital over 57 times (lost count so many)
i have been to the ed over 150 times without being admitted to a psych unit (lost count so many)

right at this point im in hospital my life sucks

current diagnoses:

Antisocial Personality Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder
Anxiety and Panic Attacks
Learning Disorder

also i have physical disabilities

i have problems with my hands and legs (dont know whats wrong)
always going numb or pins and needles
im going to see a specialist in august for a MRI my GP thinks there is something wrong with my nerves
i have see a physico and she said there is something wrong with the muscles in my legs