this is part of a post i have posted in the borderline personality disorder form
i havent herd or see him im mant years since i was really little i would have seen him 2 times
lately i have been wanting to make contact with him
to see if he cares about me or not
he abandoned me when i was little and up until lately i have hated him soo much
i dont know why i want to contact him (by mail not phone)
i dont know if it is a good idea or not
if i contact him he might not reply or send me a letter of hate and im not shaw if im ready to be rejected by him again
he use to send birthday cards then he stopped doing that
i want to know if he loves me i find this hard i have so much abandonment and hate issues with him
i think it is time to try and contact him i hope it goes well
first i have to get his address of his brothers but i can do that on Facebook
im in a half and half problem
so i asked my uncle what address is but he didn't know so i will do what he suggested and look up in the phone book
i hope im doing the right thing
i want to make contact with him
i dont want to ask my mum for his address i think she knows it - i just dont want to talk to her about why i want to contact him - its hard for me to explane it