I found out today that an online friend died. I don't know the details.
We weren't majorly close, but I've known her quite a while, we posted on 2 forums together, and we were facebook friends. I spoke to her on the phone once and had several MSN conversations with her.
I think I'm in shock. And I feel slightly guilty because I hadn't spoken to her in a while. It was always something I was going to get around to doing, but now I guess it's too late.

2 days before Christmas. It's so sad.

And selfishly, it brings me back to thinking about myself. I've been feeling suicidal lately. Researching possible suicide methods. And I wonder, if I went ahead and killed myself, how would everyone react? And then I think, what does it matter, I wouldn't be here.