*edited to take out names - forgot they were there until now*

I feel better today, thankfully. Self harm urges are still there, but that's nothing new.

New Year's Eve today. I'm over at my mother's house, with my mother, my sister, and my sister's best friend. I've just sent my mother off to get berry cider. I'd get it myself, but I lost my passport, so I have no ID, and despite being 23, I'm nearly always asked for ID when I'm buying alcohol.

I have no New Year's resolutions. I used to make them, but I can never keep them, so I don't bother any more.

Last year I made a list of resolutions. I actually forgot about them before now. I'll put them down here.

1. Get out of hospital
(managed that one, but ended up back in)

2. Start another evening class
(didn't do this)

3. Finish evening class
(didn't do this one either)

4. Visit London
(I was near London, and flew into Stansted Airport, does that count?)

5. Get a yearly membership for the cinema
(didn't do this)

6. Buy a new coat
(I did this)

7. Buy another dress
(I did this too)

8. Lose weight
(ha, I wish, I put on loads)

9. Find new music for my ipod
(Did this)

10. Stay at V's new house
(Yes!)

11. See D again
(Several times)

12. Stay with Dad in Wales for a week or so
(Did this)

13. Have a friend stay at my apartment
(I had my best friend and her girlfriend stay for a night)

14. Buy a new backpack
(I stole my sister's instead)

15. Arrange another SG meet-up
(SG is a forum I post on. I did this, but only with 2 or 3 people)

16. Get back into the habit of walking
(Didn't do this)

17. Get my toilet fixed
(I did this)

18. Get Kitten vaccinated
(I did this)

19. Get my shoes re-heeled
(I just bought a new pair)

20. Dye my hair purple
(Didn't do this)

21. Go out with friends for my birthday
(I went shopping and to get something to eat with 2 of my friends, even though I was inpatient at the time)

22. Meet up with R and A outside of hospital
(I did this)

23. Go to the carnival
(I didn't do this. My haemoglobin was really low when the carnival was on, and I could barely walk. Then I ended up in hospital)


24. Stay with T
(I did this)

25. Visit B at college
(Didn't do this)

26. Buy new socks, without holes
(I switched to wearing tights all the time)

27. Wear some shorter skirts or dresses
(I did this!)

28. Download or buy season 4 of Dexter
(I did this)

29. Find at least one new series to watch
(I did this)

30. Go to a concert
(Didn't do this)

Happy New Year everyone!

"18. Get Kitten vaccinated (I did this)"

Awww Did you have to hold it's paw to reassure it?

"9. Find new music for my ipod (Did this)"

Oh yeah? What kinda music is vibrating your cochlea now?

Kitten is actually quite good at the vet, it's my other cat who has problems with it!

I've downloaded a lot of music lately. Katy Perry, Coldplay, Within Temptation, Ida Maria, Radiohead, Panic At The Disco, Skillet, the Goo Goo Dolls...