In summary, I tried to write that I don't know what is a friend,
but, what I wanted to write was gone somewhere.
Instead, I scrabble something.
I like things are defined clearly.
Otherwise, I feel uncomfortable.
When I do something, I should know exactly what I do.
Otherwise, I cannot do it well.
I like my day is scheduled.
Otherwise, I cannot know what to do.
When there will be something different from my routin,
I want to know exactly what will happen.
Otherwise, I feel very insecure, and will be upset.
I want every person is good or bad, completely.
Otherwise, I am confused.
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My definision of friend is not clear enough.
Friends need
- to be equal
- to be independent
- mutual resupect
- mutual trust
- mutual understanding