Is knowing, or at least being 99% sure, that they're gonna believe "it didn't have to be this way."

They don't understand how disgraceful that is. The underlying notion of that statement is this... I'm "giving up on hope" because I didn't have the strength to go on. That is blatant disrespect. I am giving up on FAUX hope. If they could swap lives with me even for just one damned day, that would be plenty sufficient enough for them to recognize the hell that I live in, and that hell is my own mind, where all the misery is locked away in a chamber without windows.

###$ them. ###$ what they think. Also, there's this thesis I have mixed opinions about. Does letting someone know, in your irreversible absence, that you don't love them make it easier for them to forget you?

Oh $#%^, this has become much less vague than I'd hoped.