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Permanent Linkby caughtinafray on Fri Nov 18, 2016 3:44 pm

- It's been 8 days since I first developed a cold, and what do you know, I still have some of the freakin' symptoms! I've been coughing at an increasing rate over the past ~48 hours, and this stupid nasal and throat congestion still won't go away! Trying to sleep the night when I made that post about this was horrible. I'd put that in bold text if blogs allowed BBCode. I put on a breathe right strip, one of those little adhesive bandaid-like things you put on your nose that supposedly opens your nasal passageways so you don't have to breathe through your mouth and can sleep properly, but it did little to nothing. I found that I could breathe better if I laid on my back, but I have never, in my life, ever been capable of sleeping on my back, I don't know how people do it. So I'd roll onto my side so that I could actually be comfortable enough to sleep, but then my nose would get completely stopped up to the point where I couldn't breathe through either nostril at all, so I'd lie there breathing through my mouth until I got sick of it and rolled back onto my back, lather, rinse, repeat, while listening to my brother's loud snoring off and on, which he does every single night, because his bed is literally about 6 feet away from mine. CRAP NIGHT!!!! I almost never emphasize my words with all caps, but that pretty much required it. I'm still sniffling and coughing off and on right now.

- Next topic, moving away. The only reason we're both living here (My brother and I) with my dad is because my mom booted us both from her house, albeit at separate times. He was smoking in the house (Also drinks vodka; as for me, I abstain from smoking and alcohol as well as illegal drugs) and wasn't looking for a job. My mom was more lenient about (But not 'settling' on) me not getting a job so soon, but this reflects on what I said awhile back about the prescriptions. I was always pissed off at everything. I was gonna put a lot of description into this, but let's just say she was so ######6 stubborn in getting me out of the house to some useless counseling #######4 or what the ###$ ever, that there were 3 or 4 occasions when I physically shoved her out of my room because she was standing there running her mouth about some $#%^ that didn't mean $#%^ to me. I know I sound like a "whiny teenager" (Not exactly a teen anymore, haven't grown an inch in about 2 years), but I've been through, and am permanently stuck with more $#%^ than the vast majority of them will ever know. My mom actually did call me a "spoiled brat" a few times. I absolutely never asked for anything, and not even once did I complain to her about my life. I've told my mom and dad alike for the last several Christmases, for example, that I didn't want anything. And she calls me a spoiled brat? As if I'm a child, and a child who gets all sorts of things he wants and lives a perfectly satisfactory life, but still demands more? I scratch that off as complete #######4.

- I swore a lot in that last paragraph, as I've done quite a few times in past entries, and it went completely off topic about moving away. I originally wanted to briefly summarize a number of things I've been thinking about a lot, but this has rambled on long enough.

DX: Asperger Syndrome, ADHD, Bipolar type 2
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