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The ex from Texas

Permanent Linkby Unicornsparkles642 on Tue Apr 25, 2017 4:03 am

So it's kind of funny but most of my ex's do live in Texas a lot like the song says. He was a very big narcissist which is funny because that seems to be what I've pretty much stated and wanted in my life without ever realizing the pattern until until as of late.
Recently I started texting and calling one of them. I'd like to say it's love but in all honesty it's not because I don't really love people even though I want to.
Anyway, he wanted to me to come visit him for the two daysides off for my birthday. It would be a 10 hour drive down and 10 hours back. I would be completely exhausted if I went. I declined and so he is giving me the silent treatment now. Did I mention that he's 50? ( a gorgeous fifty)

Anyway, I'm proud that I set the boundary but part of me still wants to go and I still want to talk to him. I feel that me setting a healthy boundary is good though. If he wants me for more than sex, he will calm down and talk to me again.

I am just now sort of becoming more aware, or eather, more concerned with others emotions and inner dialogues. I am just now realizing how he operates and being more sensitive to his actual feelings instead of only caring g about them when it served me. And we've, or at least I've felt more connected to him. I don't know..he's a Marc and an older one and it worries me that he is too deeply ingrained in his ways.
All the same, I am looking forward to big more positive because negativity and positivity cannot thrive at the same time. Trying hard to move forward and have patience and a more relaxed attitude with others instead of getting eaten up inside about every little slight. God help me!

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