There is nothing to do.

Of course there are a million things to do, even some I _really should_ do, but no.

I always lack motivation, but these past few days have been a new low. Yesterday I spent about 17 hours in bead, simply because I could not make myself do anything.

Not even "fun" things are fun.

There is nothing to do, and it feels like I'm throwing time away.

Of course there are things to do, but when I try them they are unsatisfying, boring, just not right.

I'm moving in circles, trying the same hundred things over and over, but nothing can hold me today. That is why sleep is my go-to solution. I'm good at it and I almost never dream. One way time travel.

I feel empty. I do things but they don't affect me.