My overall therapy experience with her was absolutely a NIGHTMARE. Met Dr. at Hospital 2 years ago and at that time I was deeply inspired by her hard-work, intuition, honesty, and self-disclosure. Never in my life I would ever think later our relationship would turn out psychologically abusive. The Dr. never stopped crying during my paid therapy session starting from May 2013, in the meantime, she was bursting tears like nonstop everytime after I shared with her abt what happened through my childhood and the trauma I went through. Homelessness, begging on the street, getting beaten up, feeling/angry/threatened/psychotic/ hearing voices have always been my deepest fear ever since I could remember. Right after I shared the trauma I was going through, The Dr.told me she goes to see her therapist 3 times/week because of her own mental illness. I immediately felt the strong bond/connection with her everytime she started talking about the trauma she went through as a child.

It was sometimes around September 2013 I realized our relationship had become emotionally abusive. The Dr. would always talk about her father getting into a car accident and how terrified she felt about losing him. There were 4 sessions she was constantly crying about the fear of losing her father.

I 've never had a father. He told me to go ###$ myself all the time and left me when I was 6. My mother was beating me up everyday because my dad abandoned her. I grew up with bruises/scars all over my hands and body. Teachers from school told my family I was suicidal. I was placed in special-ed all the time with those retarded children. My mother threatened to call the cops on me all the time because she wanted to see me dying and killing myself. I was sleeping on the street, the stairs, in the shelter. I was afraid that my mother would kill me. I had no idea what was reality for me at that time.

"I love my dad. I really do love him from my heart". The Dr. teared up again. Have you ever thought what it was like for me to hear you talking about someone I 've never had? You even brought up your own mental illness. You should be glad that your parents brought you to the US and they even gave you a place to live and let you finish your college degree. You have 2 siblings I have nothing. I didn't even get to finish elementary school until later. When I finally decided to apply for college in the end of my senior year of high school, my parents never agreed because they were being told that I was mentally retarded since I was 5.

Dr. have you ever experienced walking in the freezing cold without a winter coat? I was only 15 my parents didn't think I deserved to be happy or even have a job. At the age of 18, you were working in the factory/supermarket and you even brought that up to ”INSPIRE" me. Don't you know that I started living on my own at the age of 10 and had my 1st babysitting job? Later, you started abusing me financially right after I told you we came from 2 different world. All you responded was, "so yeah I know we came from 2 different world but that doesn't mean I would not raise up my fee. My fee is going up my tuition is going up therefore I have to raise up my fee". Seriously, what does your living/school situation/personal life have anything to do with my psychotherapy? You treated me as if I were your psychotherapist/pain reliever and charged me $130/person for me sitting there and watching you constantly crying and lying to me abt raising your fee from $250 to $350? Only because you were late all the time and I lashed out on you? How about that time you threatened to call my work place when I told you I was hearing voices/suicidal? I never complained abt anything. Everyime when you apologized for what you did I forgave you right away.

At this point, it's deff the right time for me to get the APA/ licensing board involved and let them know how you psychologically abused me through violating boundaries in the past 2 years. And yes you sent me a letter with 3 fake referrals where intensive therapy doesn't even exist. As for a victim of therapist abuse, it's time for me to share my story because you damaged me, abused me, abandoned me, and used me. I'm not your psychotherapist. I'm only your patient. Now I have to suffer the new trauma you added to me for the REST OF MY LIFE.