Hey everyone out there so today I started out really well I've had two days of normal mood but ive had a lotof caffiene now and I feel like Im moving fadast again. Theres a button for me to push to referewsh the browser and I zoned out and clciked it about 50 times before I came back and realzied what I was doing. My thoughts are prteey quick and $#%^ my ytping is bad right now. Ive been hearing my name called still and i can hear other poeple talking about me they have the same tone as like pople who are talking about me and font know im there lsitening. I know its fake but it makes me angry now.
I had two good days after my spereatioon and now im not feeling ok. I thought i could get him back by offering a trip to Iceland but then I rememebr ed he needs space and that wouldn't be space it would closer i thought we could clinb on glaciers and stay out at the lagoon and have a lot of fun and I know now I cant even afford it and Im glad i didn't buy them because he probably doesnt even want to go. We're meeting after work to talk but i don'
t even knpow what we
'll talk about anymore ai guess just to see how we feel and he can be sdtant and unemotional with me which hurts so much. Hes hurting me so much, I wdont trust hime and