I don't log in her very often. I use this forum as a place to go for being completely anonymous. And don't want to get too attached.
I looked at my old blog and wow I've come along way and it's good to see that.
"I need to never tell people what I truly think about them. Because Or just... I don't know. Being true to myself tends to fly straight back in my face."
" I truly believe that uncensored me is too hurtful. I really care about people but every time I share both the good and bad about a situation they can't stand the bad."
I've actually started getting over this. I am an ok person. I'm not great, I'm no where near perfect. But my whole self is something that can be a positive in the world. So what if learning came through depression, so what if sometimes I'm hurting and a grump? So is everyone.
Being true to myself NEVER is a bad thing.
Censoring can be.
If the people I share with can't stand the bad, then they are not people I should be sharing my whole self with. I'm a worth-while person. I am a caring person. If I can also be a true person, TRUE to myself, and true to others I can grow much straighter and in a positive way.
I hope I can do this now - as it's no easy task. Part of me is slime. But I can control it and I can shape it into something good, I hope. Wish me luck in this task.