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Logging My Journey by maggie246816 on Mon Jun 22, 2015 4:48 pm
I saw that people on this website are able to have a blog, and I took that opportunity. Though I may not have much experience with blogging--besides having a tumblr account--I love to write. Amd I'd like to document everything that happens to me.

My name is Maggie. I'm an 18 year old caucasian (biological) female. I do prefer male pronouns, but not many people acknowledge that.

Thus far, my significant other (Autumn) and I have met two alters. The most prominent alter's name is Reiner. To my embarrassment, he is a character from the anime "Attack on Titan". Reiner Braun is a rather tall, muscular blonde boy. If you want more information on the character, check the anime's wiki.

He is friendly most of the time, but he can be pretty aggressive or sad or angry or confused or frustrated... He's an alter. He's a person... Kind of. I like to think that he is his own person.

Strangely enough, I've spoken to him, before. A few nights ago, I switched to Reiner mode. Autumn told me that he was freaking out and panicking and speaking in German. (For the record, I only know how to say a few things in German.) Somehow, in the midst of his anxiety attack, my mind showed up. I felt as if he was sitting directly next to me... And I started speaking to him (in English). After a while of using Google Translate and trying to calm him down, he began speaking in English, again. Reiner was talking to Autumn and me about what was bothering him, why he was so afraid... This experience was one of the weirdest and scariest things I've ever been through.


I've been raped, molested, and I found my mother dead. This felt equal to all of those things. Maybe it shouldn't have been up that high, but it definitely was.

(TRIGGER WARNING IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

The past few days and nights, I've been able to speak to him. The three of us--Reiner, Autumn, and myself--have a pretty good relationship. For some reason, though, last night, I completely forgot about everything. I forgot the progress we had made by somehow getting my two personalities to interact... Everything. After Autumn tried to remind me for half an hour, I remembered everything. And I'm glad.

My other alter, we found, is a 28 year old woman named Scarlette. She is, apparently, a kindergarten teacher. Autumn really hates her and claims that Scarlette is a b****. "She's one of those women who believe themselves to be 'cool' and 'one with the teens'." I don't exactly blame Autumn for disliking Scarlette. We don't know much else about this alter, besides the fact that she likes pigs and the color teal.

Thank you so much for reading... If you have anything to say or ask, please do so!

If you wanted to email me, my email is tamakisrose@gmail.com . Thank you!

I love you. You're important.

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I don't know. Help? by brahidk on Wed Dec 28, 2016 10:24 am
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separation anxiety by donttouch on Wed Dec 21, 2016 11:03 pm
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Is it Possible? YES by neg2pos on Tue Oct 18, 2016 7:01 am
Is it Possible? YES

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Have i become addicted to sex or has my boyfriend lost interest? by Lipsydoll on Tue Sep 20, 2016 11:27 am
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Re: I don't know. Help? by Snaga on Thu Dec 29, 2016 4:51 am
Hi, I'm one of the moderators here.
This wound up in the blog section, where members can keep a journal.
You might consider posting in open forum, since you are not sure of what may be going on, a good...

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Re: I unfriended my depressed friend. by quietgirl2538 on Sun Sep 04, 2016 1:08 am
Like anyone else, you are free to choose whom you want to befriend or not. For whatever reasons, it's your freedom to do that. Don't beat yourself up for it.

Re: Confused gay or straight by Snaga on Fri Sep 02, 2016 5:33 am
An old blog post- but I think a lot of guys who are gay or bi, somehow think things will change with marriage, and.... it doesn't, unfortunately. I think unless an agreement can be made, and we're open...

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Re: Confused gay or straight by AnonymusWeirdo on Thu Sep 01, 2016 10:34 am
I would say just divorce and go for It. I'm sure I'm gay too bro, I haven't tried but I have attraction for boys, but my girlfriend is pregnant which complicate things much more. Maybe you regret It because...

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Re: help me? by AttemptAtRecovery on Tue May 31, 2016 7:38 am
You can always PM me...I partially relate tbh. I really hope you get someone's help ):

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