Women; I could not date this women 23 years ago! She liked me; I could not respond because I did not like her values! Ive never been able to break through a women's lack of values or discernment for the truth; right or wrong; I can never win on this battle field! I cant or wont date people like this! I just wont! Therefore, and further more, However, hens fourth, More ever, and accompanying this; is the strange fear that the women Im actually looking for are part of the dreaded middle class people that destroyed me when young! and Im not sure what to do about this!
I just want to be free of all of it! I would like a different kind of people! an independent people with good values but adventure within them! Do I qualify? this has always scared me! I wanted to hang out with people I did not qualify to associate with!
Who then do I associate with!
Ive had some bad experiences with different groups of people! I was not accepted; I was look at as a stranger and with suspicion as if I was no good! also, I did not like the shallow people I met!
Ive had no money and was unable to hang with the right people!
Money; Im readying and being told it is important! I must continue to talk to God about this! those that have and those that do not! I do not want to have money and then start spitting in the face of the poor who do not have it!
I have allot of honest work to do with my conscious !
Music;
The goal is to write out the music that I can play it as a song at the piano! write out the lyrics and melody that it be one unison! every word has a note!