There was these small tree stumps available, and literally nothing else. Its fine; I have opportunity to build her something traditional or something wacky, like a cross made of PVC and weird pinnacles and such.
But I think I'll stick to something traditional. She deserves it.
I was a bit crazy on my last post, and I apologize. I was outside the gate near her grave when C. just said:
"Dude, even ######6 Muslims have 24 hours."
Mom took her in to be "Put to sleep" around 3:15, and I assume it was 3:45-4:00 when she died. With C.'s thinking, I am trying to bury her in the same day she died, like muslims, except I'm thinking in DAY day's, not REALITY days. In this scenario, the day ends at midnight, and thats the cutoff for a proper burial. Thats my psychosis.
With C, he's thinking reality: I have until 3:45 PM tomorrow at the earliest to get everything proper (4PM latest). I'll have time to plan, get some cash together to buy wood from Lowes up the street, make letters, get nails, and make the ground more sturdy.
Recently, some of the younger folks on the forums have been asking "Are these guys (re: alters) real? Am I just a good actor? Do I just have an overactive imagination?". The fact is if your in a state of utter psychosis like I just was (my dog died and I only had an hour to bury her, and NOW, almost midnight, I think its suddenly the right time to retry) and another person can calm you down and make you think rationally, and theres no one but yourself physcially around you? They're real. And if they're helpful and awesome like I am to them, and they are to me, it all works. So if this happens (And it will happen eventually. I got a major life shock today I thought I never would: Life is tough, so get over it), don't panic. Listen to them, and it'll work out for the best.
It always does. I can feel it getting better right now. And with that, I'm going to finish watching "Wilfred" on Hulu (EP. 11) and go to bed. Goodnight, everyone!